She passes me right in the stairwell as I walk out the door. Instant adrenaline rush and attraction. Almost instant oneitis, you might say. So we go downstairs together. Then when I hear a male voice 4 seconds later from downstairs, I was a little taken off the high, then when I see a really average, overweight nice guy between Jonah Hill and Seth Rogan - who I see working at the checkout in the supermarket - my mind is blown in the other direction.
I mean, rationally I should say: nice that such a combination is possible, that there are also women who are not ultra-hypergamous (no matter if she only has him as a good friend or as a boyfriend)
But besides disbelief, it was also just deep envy where I couldn't help myself. I couldn't even continue the thing I was actually planning to do, had to sit down first, take a breath and then go back to the apartment.
Anybody else similar experience? I am still devastated. I know normal emotional rush of envy and disbelief, when I see couples, but this was more hefty. Maybe, because I had it not for long time and thought I were at peace with Inceldom and the world.
Sorry, that this isn't a big contribution to forum, but I just wanted to vent.
I mean, rationally I should say: nice that such a combination is possible, that there are also women who are not ultra-hypergamous (no matter if she only has him as a good friend or as a boyfriend)
But besides disbelief, it was also just deep envy where I couldn't help myself. I couldn't even continue the thing I was actually planning to do, had to sit down first, take a breath and then go back to the apartment.
Anybody else similar experience? I am still devastated. I know normal emotional rush of envy and disbelief, when I see couples, but this was more hefty. Maybe, because I had it not for long time and thought I were at peace with Inceldom and the world.
Sorry, that this isn't a big contribution to forum, but I just wanted to vent.
