So you want to blow money and your brains out? Cool. I thought about something for you. Consider this.
Get a shotgun. Try to get a large caliber. A 4ga would be great. Saw off a part of the barrel so that you can point it at your head easily. If you want more swag let someone plate the shotgun in gold.
Download a picture and have someone make a large poster out of it. This will be your background. You can choose an incel hERo, your high school crush, your bully, a Jew or a feminist. Whatever you love/ hate the most.
Get two hooks in your home (tip: have a few normal sessions with them together before your day of retribution). Fuck around for a few minutes to create comfort and trust. When you're ready, get up and grab your shotgun (tip: stand close to the door. Gotta guard it). Point it at them. Try to calm them down and call them by their names. Explain nothing will happen to them if they comply and that they'll be free in just a minute. Have them kneel down facing away from your live stream cam. Get a pen and write "cuck" on the left one's back and "tears" on the right one's back. Stand in front of them to get your dick succed. You can write something edgy on your chest like "incel til def" or "baddest goy in town" or "I <3 you [name of crush]".
Have some Jewish music play in the background. Say goodbye or something edgy (if one of the hooks interrupts you, whip her with your shotgun). Point shotgun at head and pull trigger. Become famous 4eva.
^All if this is satire. I am not responsible for anything OP does kek