1st its never the right time..
But you will know what the deal is by the time you reach 21.. shits not going to change unless you win the lotto in some way. Once you hit that rythum of getting up going to work returning home to an empty apartment eat your tv dinner go to bed...over and over again. Its just cold boring monotany
I can only talk about my own experience but i wish my sui attempt at 21 was successful. Ive lived another 20 yrs and had nothing to show for it but a hollow existence.
I tried again at 35 and somehow woke up..and once again time has passed and i just shrug my shoulders..nothing has really changed..traveled..fucked hookers..emptiness.
Trucel life is so horribly brutal..you are just a pile of shit waiting to die. Today tomorrow or 20 years it really doesn't matter
If you want some temporary releaf try prozac or other jewpills. But they wont actually change anything, just cover it up. I think its best to try everything before taking the final step