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Blackpill When I Was A Kid All I Wanted To Be Was White (Because I Had An Insane White Worshipping Ethnic Mother)

Zesto

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Growing up with a white worshipping ethnic mother really can mess you up.

I am half spic half white yet because of my mother I thought white people were better and other people were lesser.

I was really hardcore into white nationalist stuff, and can you imagine this was as like a 14 year old kid. I was messed up.

I even registered an account on stormfront and told them I was half white half latino but I support the white cause and I'm with them and of course they said I was a dirty spic and ran me out of the site.

When my uncle married his Korean wife my mom mocked him and how much she controls him. My uncle ended up joining the Korean church and gives them a percentage of his income (tithe) and flies regularly to Korea with his wife and the congregation, and his children are being taught English and Korean.

My mom hates Asians because of this and told me how much of a loser my uncle was and mocked his kids.

I joined my mom and I thought my uncle was a loser and he was married to some crazy Asian bitch who controls everything in his life and has weird Asian kids.

Yet growing up no one recognized me as white because I looked like a spic. Including the people from my father's ancestry, I grew up in a Greek neighborhood and the kids and even the teachers would always ask why I have the last name I do and that I'm not Greek.

Greek teachers I've had would ask me what I was and when I told them I was Greek they would always say "are you mixed with something else" and I would say yes I'm half latino and they would say something "so that explains it."

I remember it was last Thanksgiving. My mom moved to a rich white neighborhood and we were in the supermarket getting Thanksgiving food the night before.

I come from a very diverse city so it was the first time I've seen this many white people and something just snapped in my head and I told myself I'm not one of these people and I never will be. It was worse than that, I told myself these people are trash.

I then told my mom a few days later that I want to go to Tokyo like my uncle did (he had a Japanese girlfriend in college who I met a few times as a little kid and has been to Tokyo with his Korean wife) and to call him up when she wishes him a happy Thanksgiving and ask for travel advice which she did and he told her it's a good place to visit and that my mom should take me.

But my mom brought me to Paris and London instead in January last year. And it was while I was there I really started hating the west more than ever. It was just downhill from that point on. I told my mom I wanted to go to Japan and she told me she likes western culture and nothing interests her there. I then told my mom I will never travel with her ever again and I want to go home to prepare for my trip to Japan.

When I finally got home I began what I called my J-PopMaxxing. I grew out my hair, went from 200lb to 155lb and immersed myself in as much Japanese culture as I could.

That's when I started lurking here, and I finally joined in April after reading some inspiring threads.

Just today I was in class and this kid next to me thought I was a Chinese major and was surprised when I told him I wasn't (he got me confused for a Chinese kid). That's how I know my J-PopMaxxing has worked. I am no longer recognizable as white, Latino but everyone thinks I'm Asian.

I look at my student ID photo taken about two years ago and it looks like some ogre spic monster compared to what I've become.

At least I know my kids will look Asian and they won't have any identity issues growing up.

But one of the worst things a kid can have is a white worshipping mother that feeds them nonsense growing up that white people are better and more beautiful than everyone else, especially when you could never meet that image that your mom loves so much.

Now I want to throw up thinking about how I was.
 
At least I know my kids will look Asian and they won't have any identity issues growing up.
Baltazar
Elliot rodger
 
Who's that on the left?
Kelly Baltazar, she did some facialabuse stuff. Came from a very rich family but did porn in uni, ruining her career prospects, because she was mentally unstable (not gonna point any fingers at why though, I'll leave you to judge).
 
Kelly Baltazar, she did some facialabuse stuff. Came from a very rich family but did porn in uni, ruining her career prospects, because she was mentally unstable (not gonna point any fingers at why though, I'll leave you to judge).
Nasty.
 
I remember I got into an argument with my mom once and I told her at least I'm white unlike you and she told me I will never be white because I have my almond eyes (I don't even have those, I have Asian eyes and didn't realize at the time).

Now times have changed drastically. My grandmother (who lives with my dad and me) told me that I have become an insane "Jap worshipper" (because she hears my J-Pop playing and knows about my plans to go to Japan).
 
Those are half jews raised to be westerners.

I am Asian.
Half Mestizo and half NW European right?
There are people in Ukraine with 2% Mongol admixture who are more tied to East Asia than you lmao
 
Half Mestizo and half NW European right?
There are people in Ukraine with 2% Mongol admixture who are more tied to East Asia than you lmao

Not true. I have Bering Strait Mongoloid genes from the original settlers of Latin America that crossed from Asia thousands of years ago.

I am a legit Asian and didn't realize until recently. It didn't express in my mom or her family but the recessive genes awakened in me.

If I had to estimate I'd say I'm at least 30% Asian yet I look 90%.

I have a Jomon Japanese phenotype.

fujikinaoto.jpg
 
You probably have some severe schizophrenia tbh
 
ur starting to scare me m8
 
I'm gonna listen to some Jpop in honor of your future mommy gf. May she give you lots of milkes.
 
I even registered an account on stormfront and told them I was half white half latino but I support the white cause and I'm with them and of course they said I was a dirty spic and ran me out of the site.
Brutal stormfrontpill.
Those are half jews raised to be westerners.

I am Asian.
No @Zesto you are half white half Latino.

Tbh after reading your story...I believe this another phase of you finding who you really are.

I think you should be more moderate in exploring your identity. It seems to to me you are very focused on taking things to the extreme. You nationalist phase was extremist and so is your current frauded Hafu phase.

You need to find a more balanced way of trying to be who you want to be. Never forget where you came from though.

Asians will never accept you as one of their own. Dont take too much of a distance from your ethnic identities and origin.

Good luck though.
 
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Do you still think white people are trash?
 
Do you still think white people are trash?

I hate westerners but I'm friendly with anyone that is friendly to me.

There are a few white dudes at my college I feel comfortable talking to for example.

I also despise westernized Asians (to me this is any Asian living in the west) but just like white people if they're friendly with me I'm friendly with them.

Brutal stormfrontpill.

No @Zesto you are half white half Latino.

Tbh after reading your story...I believe this another phase of you finding who you really are.

I think you should be more moderate in exploring your identity. It seems to to me you are very focused on taking things to the extreme. You nationalist phase was extremist and so is your current frauded Hafu phase.

You need to find a more balanced way of trying to be who you want to be. Never forget where you came from though.

Asians will never accept you as one of their own. Dont take too much of a distance from your ethnic identities and origin.

Good luck though.

I'm still HafuFrauding.

Smug


There's no way I'm going to let Nihon-jin waifus think I'm just another creepy gaijin when I can J-PopMaxx.

I see what you're saying though, all throughout my life I've always obsessed over things. Like Gears of War. I would play that game all day and all night.

But the difference was before this new identity/role I never felt happy or comfortable with myself and now I finally do.

https://heartiste.wordpress.com/2015/11/12/create-your-identity-to-attract-more-women/

This article explains what I'm trying to do in a way.
 
I even registered an account on stormfront and told them I was half white half latino but I support the white cause and I'm with them and of course they said I was a dirty spic and ran me off the site.



Jesus Christ brother, have some dignity


When my uncle married his Korean wife my mom mocked him and how much she controls him. My uncle ended up joining the Korean church and gives them a percentage of his income (tithe) and flies regularly to Korea with his wife and the congregation, and his children are being taught English and Korean.


Hey, do you know what denomination the church was and what percentage of his wealth he was giving. Churches are all a big fucking scam to get money, but I guess if you get a female companion than its not that bad of a deal

Also, did your uncle move to Korea, or was it a Korean church in your country of origin? I've never heard of any Korean churches in Greece, but I;m not sure if you are even from Greece judging by your post


Btw, half-spanish, half-whites are honorary whites according to some Swastika fags and Wolfensteiners, as well as Italians, but Nazimaxxing is legit retarded anyways. Just a media, politician, and feminist conspiracy to divide up men and keep us from smoking out the real problem.
 
Zesto you are not asian yet, maybe you look like but it takes more effort to be truly asian if that's what you wish. Also i still consider you kin.
 
Is this what happens when deathniks become weebs? A desire to be Asian rather than white?
 
Over for hafus
 
i dont know why asians are ashamed to be who they are... I think japanese and korean people look badass compared to africans and indians
 
I want to hurt your whore mom very badly .
 
Good for you dude.

I've noticed that some hispanic guys look a little Asian... keep taking care of yourself and maybe you'll ascend.

I even registered an account on stormfront and told them I was half white half latino but I support the white cause and I'm with them and of course they said I was a dirty spic and ran me out of the site.

:feelskek::feelskek::feelskek:
 
I don't wanna be white, i'm pretty pale but wish i was lighter.
 
Ever since I swallowed the RacePill and realized how much women hate us ethnics and prefer white men, I also want to be white. Being ethnic as a man is really a punishment in this unfair world.
 
Zesto you are not asian yet, maybe you look like but it takes more effort to be truly asian if that's what you wish. Also i still consider you kin.

Aww


Hey, do you know what denomination the church was and what percentage of his wealth he was giving. Churches are all a big fucking scam to get money, but I guess if you get a female companion than its not that bad of a deal

Also, did your uncle move to Korea, or was it a Korean church in your country of origin? I've never heard of any Korean churches in Greece, but I;m not sure if you are even from Greece judging by your post


Btw, half-spanish, half-whites are honorary whites according to some Swastika fags and Wolfensteiners, as well as Italians, but Nazimaxxing is legit retarded anyways. Just a media, politician, and feminist conspiracy to divide up men and keep us from smoking out the real problem.

I am an AmeriCel and my uncle is a member of the Korean Church (that's what it's called).

His wife is loyal to him but very controlling, I think he's got a good deal but the tithe stuff is definitely retarded. I think he enjoys the church community and the trips he goes with them too.

He also AsianFrauded and dyes his hair red like is the style with Asians. Yet he cannot pull it off nearly as well as I can. (He looks like a mainland Chinese at best when I look Oriental/East Asian (Japanese).

Yes technically my race would be "Castizo" and that falls under white but I consider myself hafu.

I like to go on /pol/ for the Japan and Asian women worship threads. I do not acknowledge white nationalist anymore so want nothing to do with them even if some would accept me.

The real problem is the ZOG.

I also do not consider myself racist (even though I was when I was a kid). I only think Japanese are the best and white women are filth, that's as far as my racism goes.
 
I wish you luck in Japan but I think you’ve lost the plot m8..:feelsmega:
 
Zesto is beyond retarded. What a fucking spastic.

I worry for his mental wellbeing when he gets to Japan and finds out the foids there are just as cunty as ones in the west.
 
Growing up with a white worshipping ethnic mother really can mess you up.

I am half spic half white yet because of my mother I thought white people were better and other people were lesser.

I was really hardcore into white nationalist stuff, and can you imagine this was as like a 14 year old kid. I was messed up.

I even registered an account on stormfront and told them I was half white half latino but I support the white cause and I'm with them and of course they said I was a dirty spic and ran me out of the site.

When my uncle married his Korean wife my mom mocked him and how much she controls him. My uncle ended up joining the Korean church and gives them a percentage of his income (tithe) and flies regularly to Korea with his wife and the congregation, and his children are being taught English and Korean.

My mom hates Asians because of this and told me how much of a loser my uncle was and mocked his kids.

I joined my mom and I thought my uncle was a loser and he was married to some crazy Asian bitch who controls everything in his life and has weird Asian kids.

Yet growing up no one recognized me as white because I looked like a spic. Including the people from my father's ancestry, I grew up in a Greek neighborhood and the kids and even the teachers would always ask why I have the last name I do and that I'm not Greek.

Greek teachers I've had would ask me what I was and when I told them I was Greek they would always say "are you mixed with something else" and I would say yes I'm half latino and they would say something "so that explains it."

I remember it was last Thanksgiving. My mom moved to a rich white neighborhood and we were in the supermarket getting Thanksgiving food the night before.

I come from a very diverse city so it was the first time I've seen this many white people and something just snapped in my head and I told myself I'm not one of these people and I never will be. It was worse than that, I told myself these people are trash.

I then told my mom a few days later that I want to go to Tokyo like my uncle did (he had a Japanese girlfriend in college who I met a few times as a little kid and has been to Tokyo with his Korean wife) and to call him up when she wishes him a happy Thanksgiving and ask for travel advice which she did and he told her it's a good place to visit and that my mom should take me.

But my mom brought me to Paris and London instead in January last year. And it was while I was there I really started hating the west more than ever. It was just downhill from that point on. I told my mom I wanted to go to Japan and she told me she likes western culture and nothing interests her there. I then told my mom I will never travel with her ever again and I want to go home to prepare for my trip to Japan.

When I finally got home I began what I called my J-PopMaxxing. I grew out my hair, went from 200lb to 155lb and immersed myself in as much Japanese culture as I could.

That's when I started lurking here, and I finally joined in April after reading some inspiring threads.

Just today I was in class and this kid next to me thought I was a Chinese major and was surprised when I told him I wasn't (he got me confused for a Chinese kid). That's how I know my J-PopMaxxing has worked. I am no longer recognizable as white, Latino but everyone thinks I'm Asian.

I look at my student ID photo taken about two years ago and it looks like some ogre spic monster compared to what I've become.

At least I know my kids will look Asian and they won't have any identity issues growing up.

But one of the worst things a kid can have is a white worshipping mother that feeds them nonsense growing up that white people are better and more beautiful than everyone else, especially when you could never meet that image that your mom loves so much.

Now I want to throw up thinking about how I was.

One of the most interesting "origin stories" on this site tbh.
 
'My kids' :lul::lul::lul: how are you gonna manage that? Become a sperm donor and kidnap the kids so you can raise them?

Btw ur mum sounds racist af. Maybe shes afraid of you becoming a weeb
 
'My kids' :lul::lul::lul: how are you gonna manage that? Become a sperm donor and kidnap the kids so you can raise them?

Btw ur mum sounds racist af. Maybe shes afraid of you becoming a weeb

No she's always hated Asians and always told me about it.

I think she is traumatized because her country (Peru) was ruled with an iron fist by a Japanese dictator/president.

Obviously my hafu kids will be with my Nipponese waifu. That'll be like when I'm over 30 though.

I'm BoyMaxxing so I want to be the kid of my mommygf not give her kids.

Happy11
 
what specific ethnicities are u ?
 
so do you have like asian eyes? like peruvian descent or something
 
Lmao retarded I'm gonna call my fam @Zesto so we can take u to Akihabara
 

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