For me, it was probably when I quit my last job at a Wendy's. I had a crush on a co-worker (I know, bad idea) and wanted to pursue her. I tried it, failed but was ready to move on, continuing with my red pill grind and thinking that if I kept pushing myself, I'd get a girlfriend eventually. Then I saw this foid get with an actual highschool drop-out as soon as he turned 18 (we were both 20 at the time and turning 21 that coming year). I'm going to college for electrical engineering tech, and this cunt chose a fucking high school drop-out over me, someone who could potentially be making a 6 figure salary with enough time at the right job. Even if it's lower than six figures, I'm guaranteed at least 70k per year. Sure, it's not the best, but it beats dropping out of high school to smoke weed all fucking day.
This is kinda what broke me. I realized no matter how hard I tried, no matter how educated I was or how much money I made, I would never be attractive enough. So now I just kinda study for the degree for myself, and no foid can have a red cent of my cash
Hell, knowing how today's economy is going, soon, 70k per year probably won't be enough to start a family if I ever get a partner to start one.
Several other things also helped me down the blackpill. High school experiences, being an oofy-doofy through elementary-intermediate schools.
I'm not even that mad at women; I'm more mad at the people who lied to me. The people who gave me advice that one day I would find someone. That 'there's someone for everyone' Disneyland bullshit. All I had to do was be myself, but if I thought for just one moment that maybe women are a little shallow--that maybe they do care about looks, I shouldn't be myself. Instead, be a nicer person. Apparently, in a world where actual wife-beaters can keep their relationships, questioning if the reason she stays is because the abuser is handsome is a step too far. I'm worse than Hitler, but someone who can't be taken seriously; like a clown. A dangerous terrorist and a pathetic, harmless snail at the same time. It's genuinely funny how far their cognitive dissonance has gone.
Kinda ranted a little there, but I'm done. I just wish Gen Alpha isn't fed the same shit if they are in between sessions of Fortnite and skibidi toilet.
This is kinda what broke me. I realized no matter how hard I tried, no matter how educated I was or how much money I made, I would never be attractive enough. So now I just kinda study for the degree for myself, and no foid can have a red cent of my cash
Hell, knowing how today's economy is going, soon, 70k per year probably won't be enough to start a family if I ever get a partner to start one.
Several other things also helped me down the blackpill. High school experiences, being an oofy-doofy through elementary-intermediate schools.
I'm not even that mad at women; I'm more mad at the people who lied to me. The people who gave me advice that one day I would find someone. That 'there's someone for everyone' Disneyland bullshit. All I had to do was be myself, but if I thought for just one moment that maybe women are a little shallow--that maybe they do care about looks, I shouldn't be myself. Instead, be a nicer person. Apparently, in a world where actual wife-beaters can keep their relationships, questioning if the reason she stays is because the abuser is handsome is a step too far. I'm worse than Hitler, but someone who can't be taken seriously; like a clown. A dangerous terrorist and a pathetic, harmless snail at the same time. It's genuinely funny how far their cognitive dissonance has gone.
Kinda ranted a little there, but I'm done. I just wish Gen Alpha isn't fed the same shit if they are in between sessions of Fortnite and skibidi toilet.
