Attacked, shoved and punched randomly while walking the hallways, constantly being humiliated and insulted, even in class, having things thrown at me. The school I went to was chad central, all the bullies were so much stronger and larger than I was. Having everyone stare and laugh while it happened, the normies, and attractive, unattainable girls, then leaving me standing there, unable to stop them, having no idea what to do.. fuck, made me feel lower than dirt, I just wanted to die.
Back then I was bluepilled too, I thought it was my fault they done that to me, for being a weak pussy, only now I understand it was because I was small and ugly, an easy target. I still constantly think of their faces, and voices, the things they said, when I get angry, or scared, sometimes I have nightmares about it all. I doubt I will ever overcome those memories, I'll always be haunted, it probably contributed heavily to why I always feel under threat when I'm in public, or with others.
If I could go back, knowing now I have nothing to lose, and being a kind, good person would never get me anywhere, I would try and put up more of a fight, even if I'd only be hurt more.
