This may sound emo and cringy as fuck but i don't care anymore. I am so fucking tired of everything and everyone and i need to vent. This world is bullshit. The Human race fucking disgusts me and each day that passes by i grow more bitter and cold. Everything is a fucking lie. As a child i was actually looking forward to adult life and becoming something or someone. I still don't know who the fuck or what the fuck i am. I also knew this world was harsh but not this vicious. Makes me wonder what my role in this shithole planet is. Or that i have no role at all. I simply exist because daddy fucked mommy and i was conceived. And that's it. That's pretty much it. Ugh
And now i here i am. I have no reason to exist at all but yet i still breath. I enjoy observing people and the world around. I am like a fucking ghost. I simply exist but no one knows that i am there. I hardly enjoy anything anymore. Only smoking marijuana keeps me "sane" from my own madness and severe depression that is eating me up right now. Waking up depressed,being depressed all fucking day and going to bed depressed. And it has been like this since i was a fucking kid. I don't want to off myself or any shit like that. Everything feels so hopeless. Like what's the fucking point anymore. Entertainment does not entertain me anymore either. I want out of this ride without the need to rope. But how? Or maybe roping is the only way out. Only when i sleep i feel calm and at peace with myself. It never began for men like me
And now i here i am. I have no reason to exist at all but yet i still breath. I enjoy observing people and the world around. I am like a fucking ghost. I simply exist but no one knows that i am there. I hardly enjoy anything anymore. Only smoking marijuana keeps me "sane" from my own madness and severe depression that is eating me up right now. Waking up depressed,being depressed all fucking day and going to bed depressed. And it has been like this since i was a fucking kid. I don't want to off myself or any shit like that. Everything feels so hopeless. Like what's the fucking point anymore. Entertainment does not entertain me anymore either. I want out of this ride without the need to rope. But how? Or maybe roping is the only way out. Only when i sleep i feel calm and at peace with myself. It never began for men like me
