
MidnightMetro
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- Oct 1, 2019
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Many cels have roped and I plan to as well eventually, but in the mean time what has prevented you so far?
It's a few things for me. The primary reason for me is waiting for my grandmother to pass. She spent a lot of money on getting me into gifted and accelerated programs as a child. I have two male cousins on her side as well but she never spent any money on them because they're low IQ drug dealers and she even wrote them out of their will. I'm literally the only person left in her will, not even my mother and aunt are included. She came from a very poor and trashy family and made something of herself and I think she sees me as the last hope of the family, so killing myself would crush her.
Another reason is that I'm somewhat afraid of what comes next. I don't think there's an afterlife, the idea of eternal non-existence is anxiety inducing, but not enough that I won't go through with roping. There's also the fact that I'm going to rope in an elaborate way that requires money and planning.
How about you? Are you afraid of death?
It's a few things for me. The primary reason for me is waiting for my grandmother to pass. She spent a lot of money on getting me into gifted and accelerated programs as a child. I have two male cousins on her side as well but she never spent any money on them because they're low IQ drug dealers and she even wrote them out of their will. I'm literally the only person left in her will, not even my mother and aunt are included. She came from a very poor and trashy family and made something of herself and I think she sees me as the last hope of the family, so killing myself would crush her.
Another reason is that I'm somewhat afraid of what comes next. I don't think there's an afterlife, the idea of eternal non-existence is anxiety inducing, but not enough that I won't go through with roping. There's also the fact that I'm going to rope in an elaborate way that requires money and planning.
How about you? Are you afraid of death?