The most brutal pill is the realization that there is no "pill" the term blackpill assumes there is a perspective, a truth that was found. The real truth is simply that everyone already knew of the blackpill "truth" but wanted to flee from it. Why do you think women of all ages actively exploit males? They live the blackpill; but are simply at the other side of the game where the blackpill is an advantage to them.
Imagine this. You cut yourself badly, and now have a massive gaping wound in your back. Normally one would want to go to the hospital to get it treated. Or at the very least take some sort of pain killer, or anesthesia to stop the pain. Incels dont do that. What we do is keep the pain the way it is to remind us of how we got scathed in the first place.
The bluepill is the anesthesia. It's supposed to give you a feeling of hope. That everything is going to be okay. Why would someone prefer to constantly feel pain. Instead of feeling nothing but hope and bliss
We went too far, we saw things we were never supposed to see. That's what the "cucked" therapy field was specifically designed for. To stop people from being constantly grazed by the everlasting brutal facts and reality chipping away their entire existence. Ideally I would want to forget everything to not feel this constant state of anger and sadness. But that's impossible. The minute I go outside, or read a study, or try to speak to people. It always, always reminds me of the encompassing blackpill that seeps through everything.