I do not know why I do this to myself but every single Christmas I listen to the same romantic Christmas songs and it hurts but I keep fucking listening to them and imagining fake scenarios in my head.
No because It gets worse every single Christmas my friend.You'll get used to it:
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Yes I am Bulgarian but I honestly dislike the cold weather but enjoy the Christmas spirit which I used to experience as a 7 year old kid. Ever since then life went to shit , parents divorced and I went through years of bullying and humiliation in high school and middle school which lowered my self-esteem to the point of me being so social anxious that I cannot even imagine to ask a girl out whether she wants to be my girlfriend or not. I am afraid of rejection and going through the same humiliation that used to happen every single day.
Exactly what I did, and LSD
Same thing happened to me but at least I opened the tv and there was shawshank redemption playing on it. So I felt at least a little better about my situation
