My IQ is above average, but I'm socially inept and mentally ill, which makes things astronomically harder for me. I was on antidepressants for years. And now that I'm not, I constantly feel like shit. I do, however, believe that science can be a good cope. I think that diving into the world of mathematics (and computer science) can be very fulfilling when you're not struggling with mental issues. It has kept my mind occupied for years. I was even thinking of pursing a phd as well, but abandoned the idea cuz I don't feel like doing anything lately. Not to mention, I was contemplating suicide. Depression has completely engulfed me and made life an insufferable, joyless hell. As for escorts, I don't think that's an option for me tbh -- I'm too high inhib and autistic.