I went to 4 different Highschools, mostly being only 2 years on a HS on average. So it was hard for me to socialize to begin with and except the last one I was nearly always brutally bullied.
Yet I still helped out girls and boys alike. I had perfect grades. I was both class clown and class genius. School "work" while a lot wasnt that hard for me. I barely ever had to put in a lot of work.
I tried to socialize with different people. I whiteknighted between age 10 and 15 because even as a 7 yo I knew pussy will be important later.
I lended people money. I always gratulated them to their birthday. I was supportive whereever i tries to amass some social status - which still was prohibited.
I went to so many workshops. I participated in so many social events.
And yes I know I befriended sadly the wrong kind of people, but even so...
HOW DID I END UP WITH ZERO FRIENDS?!
0 fucking friends.
I never had a single person tell me "lets be best friends forever!"
But I did. I told EMOTIONALLY people how much theyd matter to me. 4 people. 2 girls, 2 guys in my Elementary to early Highschool age.
Id actually was delusional thinking theyd give a shit about me.
1 of those guys lived up to age 19 just 200 Meter away. His parents still live there. But around age 16 I never did much with him anymore. He was much taller, social and better looking then me and a thug. He took drugs and did all kinds of atypical normie things.
That other guy was at my home DOZENS of times but he never invited me. Now? He doesnt even live in Germany anymore! He lives in Asia because he is Asian!
The last time I spoke to him was in 2014 when he called me once on the phone.
My Oneitis so called "Best Friend" really only used me as a Orbiter before Orbiter was even a terminus. The moment social media happened and she got Phone addicted we spend little time with each other.
The moment I changed from her school she seemingly forgot about me. She knew where I lived - she eventually just randomly ghosted me from WhatsApp. Broke my heard.
The most brutal thing about her was when a guy from the next HS met her and spoke with her about me and she supposedly told him "I know him, but we arent friends" - this is just wow. Its just literally wow.
I wanted to like confront her about this. But like I had SEVERE problems at that time and honestly this dude telling me what she supposedly said just broke my heart.
This was honestly my first real getting blackpilled moment. Also never physically met her again ever. Like it was just brutal. It was when I was close to 16 then.
Uhm...I still tried and did cold approch people but never ever simped for any girl. I stopped white knighting - this ultimately is probably also a reason the girls I "persued" never wanted to do anything with me because I got quite "cold" like I wasnt this "I give my heart and everything to you" kinda guy anymore. I also started disrespecting and simply ignoring girls.
I knew girls that were completely out of my League. Like from social status and looks I just internally knew "Why should I even give a SHIT about her? Why care about what she says, what she does, or is? She is Irrelevant because I KNOW from experience no matter what I will do she wont be sucking my dick!".
At 18 still a virgin despite all attempts, my last year in HS started and I had 2 kinda guys that I was friendly with - but not friends. Just friendly guys.
They left me too. They have my number, Email, adress, everything.
They never came back or wanted to do something with me out of school.
After age 19 girls never spoke to me. Literally never spoke to me.
In the past 6 years I only had conversations with Roasties and Boomer women.
Gen Z women are disgusted, creeped out and annoyed by me.
I now know dating Apps, Social Media, infinite Orbiters and Feminism are the culprits for this disaster that is my adult life.
Gen Z women are fucked through, empowered as a demigod - even the fat and ugly ones have dozens of guys waiting in their insta channel trying to date them.
The last attempt I had before discovering DBDR on Youtube in late 2023 was just Brutal. It was brutal. And then listening to DBDR I was like?
"HUh? Is this guy me from another dimension?"
Besides being irish ginger and fat, everything this dude said I was like: YES YES YES. This happened to me. This happened to me. This happened to me.
The bullying, the parental neglect, the rejection, the school life, the doomer mentality, the Ex-Normie Friends betraying you and using you for XYZ, the teenage years gaming and porn addiction - EVERYTHING this guy said was head on nail the same as my life.
And ultimately led me to this forum and becoming Blackpilled.
Yet I still helped out girls and boys alike. I had perfect grades. I was both class clown and class genius. School "work" while a lot wasnt that hard for me. I barely ever had to put in a lot of work.
I tried to socialize with different people. I whiteknighted between age 10 and 15 because even as a 7 yo I knew pussy will be important later.
I lended people money. I always gratulated them to their birthday. I was supportive whereever i tries to amass some social status - which still was prohibited.
I went to so many workshops. I participated in so many social events.
And yes I know I befriended sadly the wrong kind of people, but even so...
HOW DID I END UP WITH ZERO FRIENDS?!
0 fucking friends.
I never had a single person tell me "lets be best friends forever!"
But I did. I told EMOTIONALLY people how much theyd matter to me. 4 people. 2 girls, 2 guys in my Elementary to early Highschool age.
Id actually was delusional thinking theyd give a shit about me.
1 of those guys lived up to age 19 just 200 Meter away. His parents still live there. But around age 16 I never did much with him anymore. He was much taller, social and better looking then me and a thug. He took drugs and did all kinds of atypical normie things.
That other guy was at my home DOZENS of times but he never invited me. Now? He doesnt even live in Germany anymore! He lives in Asia because he is Asian!
The last time I spoke to him was in 2014 when he called me once on the phone.
My Oneitis so called "Best Friend" really only used me as a Orbiter before Orbiter was even a terminus. The moment social media happened and she got Phone addicted we spend little time with each other.
The moment I changed from her school she seemingly forgot about me. She knew where I lived - she eventually just randomly ghosted me from WhatsApp. Broke my heard.
The most brutal thing about her was when a guy from the next HS met her and spoke with her about me and she supposedly told him "I know him, but we arent friends" - this is just wow. Its just literally wow.
I wanted to like confront her about this. But like I had SEVERE problems at that time and honestly this dude telling me what she supposedly said just broke my heart.
This was honestly my first real getting blackpilled moment. Also never physically met her again ever. Like it was just brutal. It was when I was close to 16 then.
Uhm...I still tried and did cold approch people but never ever simped for any girl. I stopped white knighting - this ultimately is probably also a reason the girls I "persued" never wanted to do anything with me because I got quite "cold" like I wasnt this "I give my heart and everything to you" kinda guy anymore. I also started disrespecting and simply ignoring girls.
I knew girls that were completely out of my League. Like from social status and looks I just internally knew "Why should I even give a SHIT about her? Why care about what she says, what she does, or is? She is Irrelevant because I KNOW from experience no matter what I will do she wont be sucking my dick!".
At 18 still a virgin despite all attempts, my last year in HS started and I had 2 kinda guys that I was friendly with - but not friends. Just friendly guys.
They left me too. They have my number, Email, adress, everything.
They never came back or wanted to do something with me out of school.
After age 19 girls never spoke to me. Literally never spoke to me.
In the past 6 years I only had conversations with Roasties and Boomer women.
Gen Z women are disgusted, creeped out and annoyed by me.
I now know dating Apps, Social Media, infinite Orbiters and Feminism are the culprits for this disaster that is my adult life.
Gen Z women are fucked through, empowered as a demigod - even the fat and ugly ones have dozens of guys waiting in their insta channel trying to date them.
The last attempt I had before discovering DBDR on Youtube in late 2023 was just Brutal. It was brutal. And then listening to DBDR I was like?
"HUh? Is this guy me from another dimension?"
Besides being irish ginger and fat, everything this dude said I was like: YES YES YES. This happened to me. This happened to me. This happened to me.
The bullying, the parental neglect, the rejection, the school life, the doomer mentality, the Ex-Normie Friends betraying you and using you for XYZ, the teenage years gaming and porn addiction - EVERYTHING this guy said was head on nail the same as my life.
And ultimately led me to this forum and becoming Blackpilled.
