Getting my pp wet.
But really, true ascension, to me, isn't just about having sex. It's about realizing that I'm the kind of person who is valued by society, it goes way beyond sex. To truly ascend, I would need to not only have at least some small success in romance, but I would need to have self-esteem, and maybe even start having genuine desires and emotions other than suicide and despair again. Like when I was a kid. Ascension, to me, means becoming fully human, not the half-finished stub of bullshit that I am now. You can really tell that God must have made me on a Friday afternoon cause he was clearly half-assing it waiting for the clock to run out.