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I am starting:
I want:
1. To get a fit body. Why?
- I can wear normal clothes not shit that looks like a fucking tent.
- Nobody can make retarded fat jokes.
- I finally wanna fuck escorts and I am too high inhib to do it with my ugly ass body.
- I want to make a better impression to customers and colleagues and not look like shit.
- My job will be much easier if I am not fat and don't have to carry around my fat body all day.
- Everybody will admire me at least for a while.
- I will probably not die of a heart attack in 10 years.
- I will be able to do more in my free time such as riding bikes, rollercoasters and other shit.
Why have I not done it so far:
- I have an insane pressure coming from inside that forces me to eat. I feel like an addict without his drug. I get nervous and it is a terrible feeling.
- I am concerned that even if I eat good stuff and get used to it then after years I might fall back and get fat again. This happened all the time so far so it is very likely to happen.
- It is one of very few copes I still have left. There is not much good going on in my life otherwise. Evenings without eating tons of unhealthy shit are terrible.
2. To live in a clean environment and be organized better. Why?
- Because living in a clean place and organizing stuff will help me to focus on shit.
Why have I not done it:
- I am too lazy.
- I often work until 10 PM and when I am coming home I do not want to spend the remaining two hours cleaning up. Can't really get myself to do it during the day either because I always feel exhausted from workslaving.
3. Become a better trader. Why?
- Because moneymaxxing is the only way to cope efficiently.
- Moneymaxxing will allow me to use escorts all the time so I don't feel like an incel as much as I would otherwise (I know this doesn't work for everyone).
Why have I not done it?
- I lack discipline and do shitty trades because I want a quick rush. Working on it though.
I want:
1. To get a fit body. Why?
- I can wear normal clothes not shit that looks like a fucking tent.
- Nobody can make retarded fat jokes.
- I finally wanna fuck escorts and I am too high inhib to do it with my ugly ass body.
- I want to make a better impression to customers and colleagues and not look like shit.
- My job will be much easier if I am not fat and don't have to carry around my fat body all day.
- Everybody will admire me at least for a while.
- I will probably not die of a heart attack in 10 years.
- I will be able to do more in my free time such as riding bikes, rollercoasters and other shit.
Why have I not done it so far:
- I have an insane pressure coming from inside that forces me to eat. I feel like an addict without his drug. I get nervous and it is a terrible feeling.
- I am concerned that even if I eat good stuff and get used to it then after years I might fall back and get fat again. This happened all the time so far so it is very likely to happen.
- It is one of very few copes I still have left. There is not much good going on in my life otherwise. Evenings without eating tons of unhealthy shit are terrible.
2. To live in a clean environment and be organized better. Why?
- Because living in a clean place and organizing stuff will help me to focus on shit.
Why have I not done it:
- I am too lazy.
- I often work until 10 PM and when I am coming home I do not want to spend the remaining two hours cleaning up. Can't really get myself to do it during the day either because I always feel exhausted from workslaving.
3. Become a better trader. Why?
- Because moneymaxxing is the only way to cope efficiently.
- Moneymaxxing will allow me to use escorts all the time so I don't feel like an incel as much as I would otherwise (I know this doesn't work for everyone).
Why have I not done it?
- I lack discipline and do shitty trades because I want a quick rush. Working on it though.
