PHp
21 yo 3.5/10 truecel monster
★★
- Joined
- Jul 14, 2019
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Despite all the shit I get daily for being a mental truecel, nothing compares to the pain of this chronic loneliness.
Just look at this image for example
Imagine actually being the first option to someone, being the first person they think about when they need company or anything like that. When they want to hang out. Imagine actually waking up with someone like pic related by your side.
We'll never have that, I've never even had a friend who considered me their first option, let alone a girlfriend.
I'm also not an ungrateful piece of shit, if I hadn't my parents and specially my brother with me I'd have already killed myself a long time ago. It's just that having someone like that outside of your family, even if it's just one friend, is a part of a normal healthy life.
Humans are social creatures, how am I supposed to keep trying to do anything when I lack something basic to our nature? I've never experienced this and I already have scars way too deep to have any hope, and my life until now is proving it won't get any better, only worse.
I could take all the shit I take for having incel tier looks and actually try to accomplish something if I just had at least a friend like that to serve as a little light in this dark world. This loneliness is by far the worst thing of my inceldom, my whole life is about coping and LDAR until nothing works anymore and I finally find the guts to end it all.
Just look at this image for example
Imagine actually being the first option to someone, being the first person they think about when they need company or anything like that. When they want to hang out. Imagine actually waking up with someone like pic related by your side.
We'll never have that, I've never even had a friend who considered me their first option, let alone a girlfriend.
I'm also not an ungrateful piece of shit, if I hadn't my parents and specially my brother with me I'd have already killed myself a long time ago. It's just that having someone like that outside of your family, even if it's just one friend, is a part of a normal healthy life.
Humans are social creatures, how am I supposed to keep trying to do anything when I lack something basic to our nature? I've never experienced this and I already have scars way too deep to have any hope, and my life until now is proving it won't get any better, only worse.
I could take all the shit I take for having incel tier looks and actually try to accomplish something if I just had at least a friend like that to serve as a little light in this dark world. This loneliness is by far the worst thing of my inceldom, my whole life is about coping and LDAR until nothing works anymore and I finally find the guts to end it all.