I felt my heart drop and felt like utter shit. I wanted to go pick up a machete and hunt down all liberals
I had a moment of utter shock, then numbness, the finally indifference and a lifetime of numbness.
intense angER
I somehow already knew that it never began for me, but I always had some hope that some foid would like me for who I am, but after discovering the blackpill, I fell into a depression that lasts until now.
I didn't give out any over the top reaction. It was a gradual process for me, I knew that it was the truth, all that was left to worry about was how to cope with it after that. But before that happened, I knew it was over for me, I knew I was destined to be an incel(I didn't know the word at the time, but you get the gist) ever since middle school.
I dont know why but my reaction was "oh, ok" and i hobbymaxxed.
It came as no surprise to me tbh. I somehow already knew it was over for me, and the blackpill only confirmed that.
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cause you're low T
maybe that's for the best though
It was long ago, no knowledge about pills, so blackpilling was long process, not moment of enlightenment
But sometimes(when i feel really horny) it makes me feel bad. Its a weird pain.
is it a weird sort of disgust where you get a dry mouth?
Not sure. It was really interesting when I use to lurk, i felt like i got people who truly related to me. I saw every thread and personalized myself with them, and their story. Sadly the forum isn't like how it was.
Not really, the pain of being ugly and weak i guess.
I mean, the hopelessness it gives is equal to death i think.
Despondent
I felt kinda frozen
I felt depersonalized.
Sadness.
The puzzle finally made sense
Rage. Just rage. Just pure fucking rage.
This too. I finally understood everything
At first, I just coped by laughing at it. I found @FACEandLMS 's videos very funny and entertaining.
But one night, when I was showing one of them to my Chadlite friend in the house of one of the girls he fucked, just the three of us, I suddenly felt very bad. I looked at the situation, they were snuggling in the coach, ready to fuck as soon as I left, while I, the ugly person, was alone and hopeless. It stroke me hard and I got very sad and despondent for some days.
Nowadays I switch constantly between sadness, laughing at it and indifference.
But one night, when I was showing one of them to my Chadlite friend in the house of one of the girls he fucked, just the three of us, I suddenly felt very bad. I looked at the situation, they were snuggling in the coach, ready to fuck as soon as I left, while I, the ugly person, was alone and hopeless. It stroke me hard and I got very sad and despondent for some days.
Nowadays I switch constantly between sadness, laughing at it and indifference.
Oh, and that, too.
Depressed. Now I’m more angry. If I made this account when I first got blackpilled my username would be different
Frustration for the unluckiness and powerlessness
hopeless and rage
Deep sadness and hatred.
I believe I was blackpilled since a child, but I surpressed it for a while. Cognitive dissonance, the desire to believe that things weren't as they clearly were, or didn't have to be, I could change them. "Getting blackpilled" was merely laying down that ridiculous cross.
Depressed and hopeless, took me about at least 5 weeks to get used to being blackpilled.
Acceptance. It was the redpill where I felt anger. I miss the anger because at least then I felt some sense of control.
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