What are some famous suicide places? Beachy head in England, the forest where people hang themselves in Japan, jumping off the golden gate bridge. Those are also places where a tourist could have some fun adventures before offing themselves.
If I was going to kill myself I'd consider going to one of those places to do it. A more interesting end then just dying in a walgreens parking lot or a dirty hotel room lol.
I'm personally way to terrified to kill myself, life here is terrible, but it's still better than nonexistence or being in hell or whatever. If I were in your shoes I'd go for a cope/ldar life and try to wring whatever joy you can out of this shitty existence. If you're getting any joy out of anything ever, or you can see yourself enjoying anything in the future it's worth postponing suicide. But hey, I respect your autonomy, do whatever you want to.
Letting someone who is suffering live is cruel and accepting death doesn't feel right either. Don't do nofap and just release your sexual tension. Try to see if coping still works...
