Ive been confronted by this question fairly often throughout my life especially post teen life.
Whether i give off a depressed mood or see things negatively, people always caught it and asked me this question whether to mock me or out of curiousity.
The thing is: I dont really enjoy things. Its also why I have stopped coping methods (for the most part).
Games are cash grab and feel more like second unpaid jobs (except you are like a streamer).
Porn is unjoyful because Ive seen a lot and now i feel stupid watching someone fuck a hot chick but its not me, also because porn makes some mentally unstable.
Media consumption is really low for me nowadays. I dont even want to hear much of politics anymore.
Its just the same fucking crap and itll only get worse globally and in my shitcountry NO politics have ever done ANYTHING.
The City is a mess, itll all rots away and is not digitalized, futuristic or "modernized" at all. That said itd also not the 1980s...even tho some cars on the parking lot were build at that time lmfao.
Like I live in a slum. I live in one of the worst parts of Leipzig imaginable.
What am I supposed to enjoy: all the garbage? The destroyed streets? All the fucking insane dogs everyone has or the cats and rats on the street?
The homeless? The graffity and rotting buildings?
On the other hand if I go to a "well off middle class" sector of the City I see things that I dont have - the opposite. Clean steets, nice gardens, New modern energy efficient homes and everyone has a fat SUV in their personal parking garage.
Things ill never own.
Ill already calculated it how far i would go up the "career" ladder from here - and tbh it is both stressful and demanding and inhumane and i calculated it. I need like a 150k€ job and even with that itll take 18 years for me to reach that "middle class lifestyle".
I Literally need 6 figures in east germany to make middle class - it aint gonna happen.
Ill just be a cuck who only works to survive and continue to work.
I aint playing the lottery or am really gambling.
Stock market just fucks me over.
I day traded for 3 years and made less then what I would have if I simply threw everything into SOL/NVDA or whatever. Really your portfolio shouldnt have more then 10 different stocks.
I aint enjoying Goyslop whether its McDonalds or Dominos it all tasts bad and is unhealthy and expensive.
I lost interest in Art because...well first of because of math and secondly because of AI.
I aint ever selling my art because Gen Z and Alpha aint paying a penny for real human art.
Idk.
What do you enjoy?
Whether i give off a depressed mood or see things negatively, people always caught it and asked me this question whether to mock me or out of curiousity.
The thing is: I dont really enjoy things. Its also why I have stopped coping methods (for the most part).
Games are cash grab and feel more like second unpaid jobs (except you are like a streamer).
Porn is unjoyful because Ive seen a lot and now i feel stupid watching someone fuck a hot chick but its not me, also because porn makes some mentally unstable.
Media consumption is really low for me nowadays. I dont even want to hear much of politics anymore.
Its just the same fucking crap and itll only get worse globally and in my shitcountry NO politics have ever done ANYTHING.
The City is a mess, itll all rots away and is not digitalized, futuristic or "modernized" at all. That said itd also not the 1980s...even tho some cars on the parking lot were build at that time lmfao.
Like I live in a slum. I live in one of the worst parts of Leipzig imaginable.
What am I supposed to enjoy: all the garbage? The destroyed streets? All the fucking insane dogs everyone has or the cats and rats on the street?
The homeless? The graffity and rotting buildings?
On the other hand if I go to a "well off middle class" sector of the City I see things that I dont have - the opposite. Clean steets, nice gardens, New modern energy efficient homes and everyone has a fat SUV in their personal parking garage.
Things ill never own.
Ill already calculated it how far i would go up the "career" ladder from here - and tbh it is both stressful and demanding and inhumane and i calculated it. I need like a 150k€ job and even with that itll take 18 years for me to reach that "middle class lifestyle".
I Literally need 6 figures in east germany to make middle class - it aint gonna happen.
Ill just be a cuck who only works to survive and continue to work.
I aint playing the lottery or am really gambling.
Stock market just fucks me over.
I day traded for 3 years and made less then what I would have if I simply threw everything into SOL/NVDA or whatever. Really your portfolio shouldnt have more then 10 different stocks.
I aint enjoying Goyslop whether its McDonalds or Dominos it all tasts bad and is unhealthy and expensive.
I lost interest in Art because...well first of because of math and secondly because of AI.
I aint ever selling my art because Gen Z and Alpha aint paying a penny for real human art.
Idk.
What do you enjoy?
