OP I just had to add something quickly. At a Messianic Synagogue (Messianics are usually Jewish people who accept Yeshua or Jesus. Myself, I am gentile.) I went to, one of the elders had a minor heart attack while on vacation in Mexico. He flew home to see his heart specialist. They imaged his arteries, and it was the worst the blockage could be. The elder asked the congregation for prayer, his wife had a prayer ministry. He also asked a friend at a Christian Church who ran a prayer ministry there for prayer.. When they went in to image his heart again, the blockage was 100% gone. The doctor was baffled, and said the only thing he think of was it was a miracle. This happened over the course of one hour. That elder played the image of his heart before, and after on the screen during his sermon. I also know of a couple who had a daughter with a rare eye cancer. That girl was healed through prayer to G-d.
G-d is real dude. You just have to come to Him on His terms with a broken, and contrite heart, and a sincere attitude of repentance. Then you can begin a genuine relationship with Him. Don't be like Crowley, and others like him. G-d's enemy is real, and so is the spirit world. They will draw you in to your destruction.
Battery is about to go. Think about it OP. I just would not dismiss it. I say this with respect for your feelings, thoughts, and difficulties you experienced processing through this life here. You are wondering about Crowley for a reason. Anyways, gotta run atm.
All the best.