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Im clearly not a man.
Clearly not a child either.
I'm not a teenager anymore since I'm closer to my 30s than my teenage years.
Childhood?
Adulthood?
When did both go separate?
Ever since primary school, since I was a little kid, nothing changed.
I'm still treated the same. Still treated as something in between a man, a child, and a retard.
I can't see the situation changing any time soon as I won't turn a man in my sleep.
I can't relate to anything a man does. I don't know what dealing with adult people is like on a same level basis.
I don't know what it means to confess to a girl without making an ultimate joke of myself.
I don't know anything about any of the things adult people do.
I don't know anything about what teenagers do either.
I realise I never did.
I've never been one.
Not a man. Not a child. Not a teenage kid.
Never lived a teenage life. Never lived a childhood, not since consciousness allowed me to realise who I am at 10 years old. Never lived a life of an adult either. I've never been close.
I'm closer to an animal than I'm closer to a human as the emotions animals feel I feel them and the actions that make a human human, I'm deprived of those confined in my own head full of thoughts, like a prisoner of my own body unable to escape it and live the life to its fullest.
Can I even call myself fully human?
Who am I?
A reject, a failure, an ugly male, an incel.
Clearly not a child either.
I'm not a teenager anymore since I'm closer to my 30s than my teenage years.
Childhood?
Adulthood?
When did both go separate?
Ever since primary school, since I was a little kid, nothing changed.
I'm still treated the same. Still treated as something in between a man, a child, and a retard.
I can't see the situation changing any time soon as I won't turn a man in my sleep.
I can't relate to anything a man does. I don't know what dealing with adult people is like on a same level basis.
I don't know what it means to confess to a girl without making an ultimate joke of myself.
I don't know anything about any of the things adult people do.
I don't know anything about what teenagers do either.
I realise I never did.
I've never been one.
Not a man. Not a child. Not a teenage kid.
Never lived a teenage life. Never lived a childhood, not since consciousness allowed me to realise who I am at 10 years old. Never lived a life of an adult either. I've never been close.
I'm closer to an animal than I'm closer to a human as the emotions animals feel I feel them and the actions that make a human human, I'm deprived of those confined in my own head full of thoughts, like a prisoner of my own body unable to escape it and live the life to its fullest.
Can I even call myself fully human?
Who am I?
A reject, a failure, an ugly male, an incel.
