Tonight I went to dinner meaning I left the house. When I entered the door, two females stopped laughing. I wish I could exaggerate this, but they dropped the laughing and had a fearful look in there faces and as always, people seated who faced the doorway were staring at me.
Fuck. I had a walk of shame with a feeling of a thousand eyes on me. I sat down and started rubbing my legs continuously and constricting them, (not sure how to explain it).
Anyways, a group of females sat at a table near us and were facing me. This girl glanced at me like I was about to attack her, it felt so humiliating. Again, I felt the thousand stares again and starting shaking.
Within 10 minutes I rushed in the bathroom and had a major panic attack. After the walk of shame I saw a teenage couple hold hands with there friends laughing and that’s when I had major anxiety again and my heart was racing.
I’m looking at this on my iPhone and this looks more than I expected to write. I just was curious if this was how other people felt when they left the house and are diagnosed with severe Panic Disorder and agoraphobia.
Fuck. I had a walk of shame with a feeling of a thousand eyes on me. I sat down and started rubbing my legs continuously and constricting them, (not sure how to explain it).
Anyways, a group of females sat at a table near us and were facing me. This girl glanced at me like I was about to attack her, it felt so humiliating. Again, I felt the thousand stares again and starting shaking.
Within 10 minutes I rushed in the bathroom and had a major panic attack. After the walk of shame I saw a teenage couple hold hands with there friends laughing and that’s when I had major anxiety again and my heart was racing.
I’m looking at this on my iPhone and this looks more than I expected to write. I just was curious if this was how other people felt when they left the house and are diagnosed with severe Panic Disorder and agoraphobia.
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