StoicNihilist
"You'll do this again, time is a flat circle..."
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I knew for a long time that something just wasn't quite right. I never had many friends growing up and never had anyone express romantic feelings towards me in my entire life. I always believed the typical excuses.
-"Oh, it's your personality. You just need to smile more and act more happy."
Then I'd try to click up with other people employing that advice and it would immediately be met with hostility and rejection. Being called a creep and constantly getting 'fuck off' body language signals from people.
-"You need to shower more and hit the gym. Then you'll start attracting women and getting more friends once you work on yourself."
I followed this advice rigidly for nearly 4 years straight. Waking up at 5AM to hit the gym, lifting weights vigorously 3 times a week, taking MMA classes, going on long hikes with 40 pounds of gear, and jogging 5 miles on the off days. Constantly counting calories and macros and living a strict military like lifestyle, even planning on joining the Army at the time. It was utterly draining, and honestly? I never truly got used to it.
It never really payed off either. I still have an ugly and acne/acne scar ridden face, and autist behavior. Despite all that effort towards self improvement nobody wanted to hang out and no romantic interests were ever reciprocated. After getting turned away from the Army for medical reasons I just gave up and started gaining weight.
When I was maybe 20 or so years old I started reading about things like hypergamy and other Blackpilled concepts like the psychology behind human attraction, ect ect. You all know the drill. And everything started falling into place. That lifelong rejection and social isolation I've been experiencing finally made some semblance of sense.
That's when I officially considered myself to be "Incel". Although the symptoms were there my whole life pretty much going back to grade school it was only around 20 years old I finally accepted the truth.
So what about you guys? Was there ever a period where you were in denial about your Incel status or did you just always know?
-"Oh, it's your personality. You just need to smile more and act more happy."
Then I'd try to click up with other people employing that advice and it would immediately be met with hostility and rejection. Being called a creep and constantly getting 'fuck off' body language signals from people.
-"You need to shower more and hit the gym. Then you'll start attracting women and getting more friends once you work on yourself."
I followed this advice rigidly for nearly 4 years straight. Waking up at 5AM to hit the gym, lifting weights vigorously 3 times a week, taking MMA classes, going on long hikes with 40 pounds of gear, and jogging 5 miles on the off days. Constantly counting calories and macros and living a strict military like lifestyle, even planning on joining the Army at the time. It was utterly draining, and honestly? I never truly got used to it.
It never really payed off either. I still have an ugly and acne/acne scar ridden face, and autist behavior. Despite all that effort towards self improvement nobody wanted to hang out and no romantic interests were ever reciprocated. After getting turned away from the Army for medical reasons I just gave up and started gaining weight.
When I was maybe 20 or so years old I started reading about things like hypergamy and other Blackpilled concepts like the psychology behind human attraction, ect ect. You all know the drill. And everything started falling into place. That lifelong rejection and social isolation I've been experiencing finally made some semblance of sense.
That's when I officially considered myself to be "Incel". Although the symptoms were there my whole life pretty much going back to grade school it was only around 20 years old I finally accepted the truth.
So what about you guys? Was there ever a period where you were in denial about your Incel status or did you just always know?