I'm grateful for my folks but without them I'd have literally nothing. I'm grateful to be in this warm shower and can sleep in a room with a bed. That they let me have a computer. That my mom is very supportive.
Involuntary celibacy is keeping me insane. Knowing I'm too short and ugly and retarded to ever be anything other than creepy.
I went to a river trail today. Two different joggers saw me and turned around and jogged the other way. I look like a monster. They see a hideous man alone they think I'm gonna rape them. I was just there to find moss agate. That's what happens when you're a scary ogre instead of Henry Caville or something. No matter where you go you'll be an outcast if you're a mutant.
No woman will ever want me. Even if I did ascend she'd never be truly happy because she wouldn't be attracted to me, and she'd just dump me for being retarded anyway.
And I don't blame her, I don't want to be with someone I'm not attracted to either. But it doesn't mean be attracted to someone yet simultaneously she's a complete cunt.
But it doesn't matter. The system depends on having interests. But my ADHD ass jumps interests pretty quickly. Might as well goon, at least I never got tired of being horny.
But even if I was given an opportunity to be the most handsome man on Earth, I don't know how I'd handle that. I'd still be retarded. But hey at least I'd be able to absolutely ravage her with my retard strength.
And it's not like I'll ever experience having foreskin due to being burgercel. Life took that too. It took my youth by making me retarded and some sewer monster, it took my soul by leaving me alone to become radicalized, it took my health by making me wagecuck for nosenburg's retail.
What Jesus needs to do is strike me with a really powerful bolt of lightning when I don't expect it. That way my parents can possibly retire off the life insurance policy I maxed out on. Maybe that will compensate them for all they've done for me. I've forgiven them for creating me, knowing they're just normies that fulfilled a biological imperative. They didn't know any better.
Involuntary celibacy is keeping me insane. Knowing I'm too short and ugly and retarded to ever be anything other than creepy.
I went to a river trail today. Two different joggers saw me and turned around and jogged the other way. I look like a monster. They see a hideous man alone they think I'm gonna rape them. I was just there to find moss agate. That's what happens when you're a scary ogre instead of Henry Caville or something. No matter where you go you'll be an outcast if you're a mutant.
No woman will ever want me. Even if I did ascend she'd never be truly happy because she wouldn't be attracted to me, and she'd just dump me for being retarded anyway.
And I don't blame her, I don't want to be with someone I'm not attracted to either. But it doesn't mean be attracted to someone yet simultaneously she's a complete cunt.
But it doesn't matter. The system depends on having interests. But my ADHD ass jumps interests pretty quickly. Might as well goon, at least I never got tired of being horny.
But even if I was given an opportunity to be the most handsome man on Earth, I don't know how I'd handle that. I'd still be retarded. But hey at least I'd be able to absolutely ravage her with my retard strength.
And it's not like I'll ever experience having foreskin due to being burgercel. Life took that too. It took my youth by making me retarded and some sewer monster, it took my soul by leaving me alone to become radicalized, it took my health by making me wagecuck for nosenburg's retail.
What Jesus needs to do is strike me with a really powerful bolt of lightning when I don't expect it. That way my parents can possibly retire off the life insurance policy I maxed out on. Maybe that will compensate them for all they've done for me. I've forgiven them for creating me, knowing they're just normies that fulfilled a biological imperative. They didn't know any better.
