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I just noticed how much of myself i repressed since i was a young boy. I was always a sensitive emotionaly vulnerable type and after reading on this forum for quite some times i noticed how much i was pressured by gender norms and female expectations. Guys literally go through the desert to win a girl. They do all sort of absurd things (brain reward is highest for sex) to feel her.
The problem is i cant fit in and the parts that i hate in myself are hated by them, by my parents, by society. Either you fake it or you can get lost, take drugs, overwork yourself or commit suicide. I took psychiatric drugs to help me not to be so sensitive but i realized what was going on. I was undergoing biological adaptations to make me more likable for the NPCs. It was the saddest thing that happend to me and thinking about it in this way just ruins every dream or hope i ever had for this world.
My hope is i find some friends who are similiarly sensitive and fucked up as i am.
If girls truly care for males then they would lower their standards now and stop this insanity.
They would accept guys being weak. being vulnerable, being unfit, shitting themselves because of fear before they go to war.
But no, nature was always an armsrace of the most fittest. It will always be and that is the sad truth about this world. It is not fair.
The top guys will be selected, and the bottom dies off or gets treated shitty.
The problem is i cant fit in and the parts that i hate in myself are hated by them, by my parents, by society. Either you fake it or you can get lost, take drugs, overwork yourself or commit suicide. I took psychiatric drugs to help me not to be so sensitive but i realized what was going on. I was undergoing biological adaptations to make me more likable for the NPCs. It was the saddest thing that happend to me and thinking about it in this way just ruins every dream or hope i ever had for this world.
My hope is i find some friends who are similiarly sensitive and fucked up as i am.
If girls truly care for males then they would lower their standards now and stop this insanity.
They would accept guys being weak. being vulnerable, being unfit, shitting themselves because of fear before they go to war.
But no, nature was always an armsrace of the most fittest. It will always be and that is the sad truth about this world. It is not fair.
The top guys will be selected, and the bottom dies off or gets treated shitty.
