I was on chat rooms way back in the year 1999/2000/2001 (habbo hotel was one of the most used) I was about 21/22/23 at the time.
I could chat with a young woman in her late teens using a virtual habbo, we would get along and add each other to our friends caddies. Eventually, after 1 or 2 hrs chatting (or sometimes the next day), she would ask for a picture of me (after usually sending me one of her). When i sent one and they suddenly stop talking, walked out the virtual room and deleted me from the friends caddie.... I knew it was over. No explanation. Nothing. This happened all the time to me, and I wasn't even fat or too skinny, not short either (5'9 to 5'10). Didn't matter what best pictures I used, i was just very beta-faced and it was dawning on me on a daily basis. It was the blackpill awakening for me, and just made me realize the shunning and bullying and inability to get laid I had recieved years earlier while attending 4 yrs of community college living away from home was all looks related. Actually one girl on the chat wanted to "just be friends" and told me my face looked 16 not 22/23 and I wasn't "manly" looking enough. She eventually deleted me when she went to university. It was around this time (2002) that began a further decrease in my mental health and I became full time recluse and NEETcel.
I could chat with a young woman in her late teens using a virtual habbo, we would get along and add each other to our friends caddies. Eventually, after 1 or 2 hrs chatting (or sometimes the next day), she would ask for a picture of me (after usually sending me one of her). When i sent one and they suddenly stop talking, walked out the virtual room and deleted me from the friends caddie.... I knew it was over. No explanation. Nothing. This happened all the time to me, and I wasn't even fat or too skinny, not short either (5'9 to 5'10). Didn't matter what best pictures I used, i was just very beta-faced and it was dawning on me on a daily basis. It was the blackpill awakening for me, and just made me realize the shunning and bullying and inability to get laid I had recieved years earlier while attending 4 yrs of community college living away from home was all looks related. Actually one girl on the chat wanted to "just be friends" and told me my face looked 16 not 22/23 and I wasn't "manly" looking enough. She eventually deleted me when she went to university. It was around this time (2002) that began a further decrease in my mental health and I became full time recluse and NEETcel.
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