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[font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif]Please and thank you.[/font]
[font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif]Neither of us has relationship experience, Or has ever dated.[/font]
[font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif]We've been together for 6 months. We live 7 hour time difference. Me US , her Europe. We are both virgins. We have done stuff in webcam, but not anymore since my porn + masturbation problem. We met on a( non dating) chat app. And we got along right away. Talking anonymously then on messenger.[/font]
[font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif]We haven't seen each other in person yet. And we can't visit as we like, for the moment. And we don't know the date when we will.[/font]
[font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif]I'm living with my mom, I don't have a career right now. In between jobs.[/font]
[font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif]She is finishing things for her career there for two more years and she is working.[/font]
[font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif]Topics like having a kid together soon, have come up, as well as me going there or her coming here to live. But she will finish her two years of apprenticeship there.[/font]
[font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif]I grew up a "nice guy" since I can remember, and I was an Incel or still am before I even heard that word. And I didn't go to high school or college, so my social development was stunted I just worked retail. That and bullying growing up is the reason I believe for my inceldom. And am currently on another try to quit pornography. [/font]
[font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif]My girlfriend has abandonment issues since childhood, since her father was absent and left her (only child) and her mother alone to be with lovers. So my girlfriend has and is focused on her education and career. There which is uncertain how it would transfer here, and I don't believe I would fit in there.[/font]
[font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif]So we both have insecurities. And once recently my girlfriend said what if I'm only with her because there's no one else . And I remember that I'm only human, and I do feel jealous and angry when I see couples together and I'm alone and I do have sexual desires with women I see around. But remembering how well we got along and that we started with no expectation as friends for two weeks talking an talking, and I decided to give it a try in a relationship.[/font]
[font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif]In the beginning during friendship, Subconsciously I wanted us to try date, and get experience, but I knew I wanted to visit her one day even if just friends.[/font]
[font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif]One day I said something flirty naturally, and she asked if I had feelings, we obsiously got along and said we should talk about a possible relationship. So I said ok let's try. Our plans too see each other at a certain date didn't pan out so more waiting. Still unsure of the actual time til we meet.[/font]
[font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif]Also I have no social circle. And she does.[/font]
[font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif]She's very nice and understanding. And patient.[/font]
[font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif]We both feel the clock ticking.[/font]
[font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif]And the uncertainty of it all.[/font]
[font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif]Neither of us has relationship experience, Or has ever dated.[/font]
[font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif]We've been together for 6 months. We live 7 hour time difference. Me US , her Europe. We are both virgins. We have done stuff in webcam, but not anymore since my porn + masturbation problem. We met on a( non dating) chat app. And we got along right away. Talking anonymously then on messenger.[/font]
[font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif]We haven't seen each other in person yet. And we can't visit as we like, for the moment. And we don't know the date when we will.[/font]
[font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif]I'm living with my mom, I don't have a career right now. In between jobs.[/font]
[font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif]She is finishing things for her career there for two more years and she is working.[/font]
[font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif]Topics like having a kid together soon, have come up, as well as me going there or her coming here to live. But she will finish her two years of apprenticeship there.[/font]
[font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif]I grew up a "nice guy" since I can remember, and I was an Incel or still am before I even heard that word. And I didn't go to high school or college, so my social development was stunted I just worked retail. That and bullying growing up is the reason I believe for my inceldom. And am currently on another try to quit pornography. [/font]
[font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif]My girlfriend has abandonment issues since childhood, since her father was absent and left her (only child) and her mother alone to be with lovers. So my girlfriend has and is focused on her education and career. There which is uncertain how it would transfer here, and I don't believe I would fit in there.[/font]
[font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif]So we both have insecurities. And once recently my girlfriend said what if I'm only with her because there's no one else . And I remember that I'm only human, and I do feel jealous and angry when I see couples together and I'm alone and I do have sexual desires with women I see around. But remembering how well we got along and that we started with no expectation as friends for two weeks talking an talking, and I decided to give it a try in a relationship.[/font]
[font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif]In the beginning during friendship, Subconsciously I wanted us to try date, and get experience, but I knew I wanted to visit her one day even if just friends.[/font]
[font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif]One day I said something flirty naturally, and she asked if I had feelings, we obsiously got along and said we should talk about a possible relationship. So I said ok let's try. Our plans too see each other at a certain date didn't pan out so more waiting. Still unsure of the actual time til we meet.[/font]
[font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif]Also I have no social circle. And she does.[/font]
[font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif]She's very nice and understanding. And patient.[/font]
[font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif]We both feel the clock ticking.[/font]
[font=helvetica, arial, sans-serif]And the uncertainty of it all.[/font]
