- Jul 22, 2020
- 41d 14h 27m
As the title says, Trying to socialize is suifuel. I literally have no clue about it other than introducing myself to others. Socializing has never been a strong suit of mine, as in previous posts, i've said that i've always sat alone during lunch and other times where it's natural to go out and socialize. I am in my 12th year of School, so this is the last year of school, and it's honestly been depressing, when i was younger I was very lowinhib, but as the years went on, i started to recluse into myself. Since this is high school i'm talking about, everyone has their friends to talk with and have fun with. I'm the complete opposite, of these other people. I stutter alot, and I avoid eye contact like the Plague (Though i wouldn't mind if i caught the plague). Everyone knows who their friends are now. And it's near impossible to get into a friend group without feeling you don't belong there or you feel as if you're being annoying. I feel very depressed when I see foids talking to their other foid friends. The other day this Girl (More like Young Woman) was talking about her soon to be husband, while holding her friends hand. I stopped for a second to observe this, and I realized what I am missing out on,not only Teen love but, also having Friends. This has sent my mental state into a state of despair....and to the realization that this will probably be my happiest time as i don't have much to look forward to other than working for the rest of my life.