About a month ago I wrote about me punching my neighbor's wall since I could hear them fucking. I have been lucky enough to not suffer any consequences for that thankfully.
(funnily enough, I saw the sad boyfriend for the first time yesterday and he's literally like a 5'9 average looking spick dude. His girlfriend is a fucking 6 ft tall, darker skin Latina mulatta looking bitch. I literally had the thought of " I can kill this faggot". But now that I think about it, he obviously had to thug max to get this cunt.)
I have kept hitting the wall when they got too loud and I think it's awaken something in me. Recently I've been looking up boxing videos and tutorials on how to throw a punch and I've even bought a heavy bag (cheap inflatable one with water and sand) to help with punching. I've been punching the walls on the other side of my apartment and I think I'm actually starting to condition my hands a little bit better. I've also been steadily working out for the past couple of months + I think this is a way to take it to the next level. I've said before that I'm a big guy but at the end of the day in the inside I'm just a fucking nerdy urkel tier pussy. I'm very conflict avoidant and hate making eye contact to strangers but there is this part of me that wants to change that. Also I do have that standard incel range of not having a GF. I feel like if I can use that to better myself and use it to learn legitimate self-defense and to at least know how to hit somebody correctly. I will be more capable person. I'm definitely not at the levels going to a boxing generally cuz that shit is expensive but baby steps and all. If any of you guys have tried boxing or any other martial arts/ self-defense course, tell me about it in the comments.
(funnily enough, I saw the sad boyfriend for the first time yesterday and he's literally like a 5'9 average looking spick dude. His girlfriend is a fucking 6 ft tall, darker skin Latina mulatta looking bitch. I literally had the thought of " I can kill this faggot". But now that I think about it, he obviously had to thug max to get this cunt.)
I have kept hitting the wall when they got too loud and I think it's awaken something in me. Recently I've been looking up boxing videos and tutorials on how to throw a punch and I've even bought a heavy bag (cheap inflatable one with water and sand) to help with punching. I've been punching the walls on the other side of my apartment and I think I'm actually starting to condition my hands a little bit better. I've also been steadily working out for the past couple of months + I think this is a way to take it to the next level. I've said before that I'm a big guy but at the end of the day in the inside I'm just a fucking nerdy urkel tier pussy. I'm very conflict avoidant and hate making eye contact to strangers but there is this part of me that wants to change that. Also I do have that standard incel range of not having a GF. I feel like if I can use that to better myself and use it to learn legitimate self-defense and to at least know how to hit somebody correctly. I will be more capable person. I'm definitely not at the levels going to a boxing generally cuz that shit is expensive but baby steps and all. If any of you guys have tried boxing or any other martial arts/ self-defense course, tell me about it in the comments.
