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I painful recall being in a highly religious high school . I was already there for about 1.5 years . Religious meaning our textbooks had verses . Even our science books were completely covered with verses with a great commitment in attempting to brainwash the students . Pushing aside scientific evidences about evolution . You get where this is going .
I remember entering the school as a new student in non-uniform . I recall when introduced to the class . They gave the typical disgusted looks I always get .
At that time I was severely bluepilled . So I assumed it had to have something to do with my personality or etc .
I already got an early taste for what was to come .
Fast forward and skip all the bullshit I had to endure . Being isolated from the class , being bullied by the teachers and classmates all lead up to the final moment that dealt the final blow .
I remember resting my head on the table while my nasty foid teacher vented about her petty issues . Everyone had to turn around but this day I just turned around my toros only just a bit at times to show I’m “listening.” And then went back to resting my head . In a way this was my way of saying “fuck you” to everyone who mistreated me . At this point everybody was hostile towards me . I still had no friends . I ate alone . I would be made fun of by teachers asking me to stand up and ask “why do you always sit alone?” Putting me on the spot constantly . Being gossiped about earshot away . Being ignored when trying to interact with peers and purposeful being fed negative reinforcements to discourage me from attempting anything socially .
The foid teacher was close to the students and the students liked her . So she kept hinting about how I was rude and for them to ignore me when I was resting my head . Fuck them . Other normies would not give a fuck and she wouldn’t make a big deal out of it .
Guess not for me .
I exited the classroom . And the whole normie classmates were eating outside the classroom . I hear screaming and yelling . My nightmare became true .
I saw all my classmates with so much hate in their eyes . One of the popular incel in denial who was NT maxxed started asking me what’s my problem . Suddenly it was like something took over my soy passive mind and I got up in his face and asked if he had a problem with me . The rest started raising their voice and yelling . Asking me to leave and get lost . Maybe if asking me to kill myself . I walked off pointing offensive gestures as they yelled a shit load of vulgarities . I sat alone for probably my last lunch . I had the foids from my classroom pass by me as I looked down eating in the corner of the bottom of the stairway . They looked at me with disgust and walked off .
I cried back on my way home and cried out for God to help me . I dropped out a few days after . This was the start of the panic attacks and all sorts of hellish mental torment that my mind was plagued with . Leaving while was good . A piece of me was violated permanently . My dignity tainted . I couldn’t cope and suicidal thoughts poured in . I thought about where I would hang the rope to hang myself at times . They already graduated and are enjoying life while here I am wageslaving without proper education and suffering with shitty pay . Thank you God …
I remember entering the school as a new student in non-uniform . I recall when introduced to the class . They gave the typical disgusted looks I always get .
At that time I was severely bluepilled . So I assumed it had to have something to do with my personality or etc .
I already got an early taste for what was to come .
Fast forward and skip all the bullshit I had to endure . Being isolated from the class , being bullied by the teachers and classmates all lead up to the final moment that dealt the final blow .
I remember resting my head on the table while my nasty foid teacher vented about her petty issues . Everyone had to turn around but this day I just turned around my toros only just a bit at times to show I’m “listening.” And then went back to resting my head . In a way this was my way of saying “fuck you” to everyone who mistreated me . At this point everybody was hostile towards me . I still had no friends . I ate alone . I would be made fun of by teachers asking me to stand up and ask “why do you always sit alone?” Putting me on the spot constantly . Being gossiped about earshot away . Being ignored when trying to interact with peers and purposeful being fed negative reinforcements to discourage me from attempting anything socially .
The foid teacher was close to the students and the students liked her . So she kept hinting about how I was rude and for them to ignore me when I was resting my head . Fuck them . Other normies would not give a fuck and she wouldn’t make a big deal out of it .
Guess not for me .
I exited the classroom . And the whole normie classmates were eating outside the classroom . I hear screaming and yelling . My nightmare became true .
I saw all my classmates with so much hate in their eyes . One of the popular incel in denial who was NT maxxed started asking me what’s my problem . Suddenly it was like something took over my soy passive mind and I got up in his face and asked if he had a problem with me . The rest started raising their voice and yelling . Asking me to leave and get lost . Maybe if asking me to kill myself . I walked off pointing offensive gestures as they yelled a shit load of vulgarities . I sat alone for probably my last lunch . I had the foids from my classroom pass by me as I looked down eating in the corner of the bottom of the stairway . They looked at me with disgust and walked off .
I cried back on my way home and cried out for God to help me . I dropped out a few days after . This was the start of the panic attacks and all sorts of hellish mental torment that my mind was plagued with . Leaving while was good . A piece of me was violated permanently . My dignity tainted . I couldn’t cope and suicidal thoughts poured in . I thought about where I would hang the rope to hang myself at times . They already graduated and are enjoying life while here I am wageslaving without proper education and suffering with shitty pay . Thank you God …
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