IncelsNeverCry
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Something I have noticed for some time now is whenever my full family is gathered, mom, dad brother and me in a room and interacting I am always struck with melancholy afterwards. As today when I had them over for coffe and cake at my apartment we were chatting like usual, they were giving me little jabs as usual, and I thought to myself "These people, my family, are talking to each other like friends but with me as a son and nothing more, if we weren't family they would dislike me or at least look down on me more then they already are."
So I guess the final pill to swallow for me is that even my family is only dutybound to me with no real love or affection, not that I didn't know this based on previous life experience growing up but it never hit me as hard as it did today, the way they look and speak to and with my brother who is a true chad without any copes, clothes, fancy haircut etc is completely different from with me, they laugh with each other but laugh at me, I guess I only truly have grandma on my side, it kind of sucked realizing this maybe oldercels can relate to the gradual estrangement of family over the years.
So I guess the final pill to swallow for me is that even my family is only dutybound to me with no real love or affection, not that I didn't know this based on previous life experience growing up but it never hit me as hard as it did today, the way they look and speak to and with my brother who is a true chad without any copes, clothes, fancy haircut etc is completely different from with me, they laugh with each other but laugh at me, I guess I only truly have grandma on my side, it kind of sucked realizing this maybe oldercels can relate to the gradual estrangement of family over the years.