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SuicideFuel True fucked up mentalcel trait: You are afraid of happiness and actually having someone in your life.

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"Cherophobia is a phobia where a person has an irrational aversion to being happy. The term comes from the Greek word “chero,” which means “to rejoice.” When a person experiences cherophobia, they're often afraid to participate in activities that many would characterize as fun, or of being happy."



You are tired of being sad, tired of being alone and now knowing what happiness is.
Happiness, in the most basic form, for me, is merely a state of mind, merely produced by chemistry.
As everyone on this planet, we will experience loss at some point, and it can be really compelling and traumatizing. Loss of every kind, like pets, objects (this is hell if you are attached to objects and feel sympathy for them like they were human forms, I have this thing and it makes my life complete hell), family members, friends, friendships, loss of the good times that were left behind and only to be remembered, partners that have just parted ways with you... anyone will experience something to this degree, and depending on the person, they can get tired really fast from it.
People can get so tired of losing friends that they will avoid making any new friends, as they know it is just a matter of time for them to go away and you will never talk again.
People can lose so many partners, for many reasons, that they will stop seeking relationships and try to get into escort or casual relations if they have the means to it.



But what about happiness itself?
All you probably know for the last many years of your life is depression, loneliness, rejection and feeling excluded.
Is it worse to always be sad or once be happy and then even sadder again to know that you had the highest achievement of life and lost it?
Your greatest achievement will also be your greatest loss.




I imagine that most people here crave for a partner (I know some would prefer to just be alone and fuck escorts/casually if they achieve that) or never get into a relationship for the fears and paranoia it can bring, i.e. cheating.
Imagine you have a person and you share a lot with this person, you build a life, bond, memories, and this person will someday leave. That is terrifying. You would be losing someone that was with you, that lied with you and have bonded with you, you have memories with that person, a life, and that person is now leaving. The fear it induces is terrifying.
So, is it better always staying alone or risking a relationship with all the risks it brings, know what it is like to be happy with someone and then end up hurt because you can't really deal with things in a healthy way? Is it better to stay alone or have someone someday and have this person leaving you and you get bad again, probably worse than before because you actually felt infinitely better than in the past, just to be thrown in the dark pit once again, but now deeper?

You are afraid of having things and happiness because you know that you will lose them at some point.



Look at this picture and try to imagine what this old man feels... imagine having a life long partner and losing it some day... you will live the miserable rest of your life in pain, thinking of someone that is dead, you are never gonna see that person again, her embrace is no more, her voice, scent, company or words, nothing of that exists anymore. You will live on memories, tearing up looking at pictures or videos or memories. You will be still loving and craving her company and you will never have it anymore. Everything you have is residual...
The rest of your life will be in utter pain and loneliness as your only intimate partner is gone forever from this life and you have remained alone to feel the pain to the very last breath you have. The grief, the feeling of loss that will never go away because you had something with that person for so long. Think about lost friends or family... that is exactly like it, but to a more excruciating emotional level because you had romantic attachment.





As if that is not enough, after losing a partner, you can have something called takotsubo cardiomyopathy - the broken heart syndrome. It can be serious and soul draining. Do you really want to risk it?
If you get into a very, very long term relationship, you must pray to be the first to go so you don't have to live the rest of your life in pain for the loss you had, and many people never recover from it and are driven either insane or to voluntary death (suicide), as they cannot deal with it.
Hyper/highly sensitive people should not go through this, seriously, they are at serious risk in a relationship of any kind.
I don't know if I want that for my life.

You looked at that picture, and may say: but the years they had together surely were worth it and make up for it.
That's debatable. You just had your biggest piece of happiness taken from you, what do you have now? You may have other parts, but you will forever remain uncomplete as the true one is now gone from life to never return.



Shall we look at happiness itself?

Everyone here feels down, many can't imagine what happiness is like, and once you achieve it (if you do), you will know what it is like.
When you lose it, you will be far worse. Do you remember the saying that good things don't last long? Yes, that's the tragic rule of the nature of reality. Tragedy seems to last forever while happiness is nothing but a short, mere moment in the lives of many people. Most of the planet is actually miserable, not trully happy, nor actually depressed, they are mostly neutral and unsatisfied.
After your happiness is gone, you will be extremely bitter for remember what you once had, and bitter because you know what you just lost. You know what happiness felt like. Like a drug, addictive, the otherwordly feeling of feeling... like a human, feeling you are living and satisfied. Now, you are the opposite, and even worse for knowing what it really is lost.
If you don't know what that is, then what difference does it make? You would always be that way.
So, is it better to never have something and be miserable, in stable misery, or have a super high energy time in your lose only to lose it later and be thrown in darkness after and feel a million times worse than before?
Is the time you were happy enough to make it for the time you are gonna spend miserable, probably to the end of your days depending on what kind of shit happened?
Probably not, so why would I risk it?
You could risk it if you are resilient, a rare, but very admirable trait that makes the most amazing people survive the most pain and suffering there is to experience, and still somehow overcome it all and end on the top, not with every material thing you ever wanted, but with your sanity in check, satisfaction and happiness, fulfillment. They have prevailed over adversities against all odds. How many can do that with success? The whole humanity is doing it right now and the vast majority failing and feeling miserable.

You read about some amazing storeis of people that went through every sort of shit and somehow are still alive, and somehow, sane, fulfilled and happy with how they are going and their progress and state. But, not everyone is resistent like that. Many people have been driven to suicide by many things, even small things, would not be a bless to be part of the resilient people?

Not everyone is made for that, and a trait of a fucked up mentalcel, is this dilemma, the fear of being happy and trying in life. The fear of failing and the shame that failing many times can bring onto you and your character, your integrity.





It's a dogma. Everything will be lost some day, no exceptions. Every person you know, every thing you have ever seen. There will be a time where everything will be meaningless and... somehow undone. The heat death of the universe will occur and it will be like we were never here. It was all meaningless and it will always be meaningless in the grand scale of things in the universe. We could disappear right now and not make a differente in our solar system. But, does that mean we should just stop caring and just die already? Of course not. We must make our time here the best we can. But, how can we do that when we live such dilemma and the only life we have to live is ruined by a ton of things, be your brain, or genes, or deformation, anything else?

Most people say that life is a gift... but what kind of gift is it that many will get and will never enjoy?
What kind of gift is it if it all it brings to so many people is just pure depression and sadness?
It's not a gift if you want to just escape it.
It's not a gift if you were not "chosen" to actually enjoy it like a normal person will do in their life.

 
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SlutLiberationFront said:
Look at this picture and try to imagine what this old man feels... imagine having a life long partner and losing it some day.
I can't.
besides getting attached to a foid to this extend is bluepilled. Imagine what the women would do in that position instead, find a replacement.
 
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Lolimancer said:
I can't.
besides getting attached to a foid to this extend is bluepilled. Imagine what the women would do in that position instead, find a replacement.
Exactly. It really depends on both people and how they generally work. Resilient people will just go forward, move on, continue with life from another start, find someone else and such. But... at that age as the guy in the picture? Almost impossible. He is practically at his death bed.
Some people spend so much time alone they will get attached to anyone that shows up, quickly and intensely, even to objects.

I am a prime example of this. After so much isolation and loneliness I got attached to meaningless objects such as my silvery swiss army knife, and a bunch of stax bottles that I keep in my closet for at least 7 years, along with many other completely meaningless and useless objects.
This is too fucked up dude. I treat objects with sympathy and feel for them like living beings. This is a true mental hell. Seeing and object being mistreated almost makes me tear up.

I wish I didn't have this shit.
 
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SlutLiberationFront said:
After so much isolation and loneliness I got attached to meaningless objects such as my silvery swiss army knife, and a bunch of stax bottles that I keep in my closet for at least 7 years, along with many other completely meaningless and useless objects.
This is too fucked up dude. I treat objects with sympathy and feel for them like living beings. This is a true mental hell. Seeing and object being mistreated almost makes me tear up.

I wish I didn't have this shit.
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I abandon people before they can abandon me.
 
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Lolimancer said:
I keep the silvery swiss army knife by my side at all times, and if I am not doing anything I keep it in one of my hands. I keep it by my side when I sleep as well. It's just unbelievable how fucked up I ended being. And I am still unable to throw the stax chip bottles away after so many years.
I don't think there is therapy for this shit, maybe I really need to do something with my life before it is way too fucking late, or it already is by this point in time.
 
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OwlGod said:
I abandon people before they can abandon me.
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SlutLiberationFront said:
I keep the silvery swiss army knife by my side at all times, and if I am not doing anything I keep it in one of my hands. I keep it by my side when I sleep as well. It's just unbelievable how fucked up I ended being. And I am still unable to throw the stax chip bottles away after so many years.
I don't think there is therapy for this shit, maybe I really need to do something with my life before it is way too fucking late, or it already is by this point in time.
keep the knife but throw the stax chip bottle away pls XD
 
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Lolimancer said:
keep the knife but throw the stax chip bottle away pls XD
I have at least 20 of those bottles. I also have a defective fan that has warming function (used it a lot in the past for my feet that get ice cold in the winter) that I also refuse to throw away.
Dude I need to be fixed, seriously, I can't be fucked up like this for life. There has to be a way to be fixed from this.
 
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Good thread, we have to stay away from things which are not suposed to be for us and live in stable pain, sadness and loneliness in order to not feel worse once everything we have builded goes away (we know really well it won't last long time and people will not miss us like we'd do with them because we can be replaced very easily)
The life style of an incel in a summary
 
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Vaguehopes said:
Good thread, we have to stay away from things which are not suposed to be for us and live in stable pain, sadness and loneliness in order to not feel worse once everything we have builded goes away (we know really well it won't last long time and people will not miss us like we'd do with them because we can be replaced very easily)
The life style of an incel in a summary
Very well thought out and use of words, my friend. I would not be able to put my thoughts into words like that. You pretty much summed up my entire post in one sentence.
Some things are just... not to be messed with for some people. E.g., impulsive suicidal person in a house with guns.
 
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dunno about that but seems like something a foid psychologist would say in an attempt to sound smart
 
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curryboy420 said:
dunno about that but seems like something a foid psychologist would say in an attempt to sound smart
Well, living in mental hell does it to you.
There are fears people don't even know exist, like fear of trees. There's fear of being lonely and this post is almost the equivalent to the opposite of it.

It's like losing a game every time you play it. It gets to a point you don't even want to try and play anymore because you already know the end result, because you just can't play it (the game being life). Mental illness just exists for the sole purpose to make people lose before even starting their lives.
 
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Well, living in mental hell does it to you.
There are fears people don't even know exist, like fear of trees. There's fear of being lonely and this post is almost the equivalent to the opposite of it.

It's like losing a game every time you play it. It gets to a point you don't even want to try and play anymore because you already know the end result, because you just can't play it (the game being life). Mental illness just exists for the sole purpose to make people lose before even starting their lives.
thats your problem for projecting your mentality on every incel ever. Some of us actually tried and failed the normal way.
 
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curryboy420 said:
thats your problem for projecting your mentality on every incel ever. Some of us actually tried and failed the normal way.
Every incel ever?
I guess the title explicitly says MENTALCELS. Mentalcels = mental health problems. How do you get that I am projecting in every incel ever is beyond me, the title does not even imply that as it says "fucked up mentalcel". AKA mentalcel that was already mental before discovering the blackpill and then it got far worse for realising the nature of relations between humans, emotions, attachments and everything related (aka glimpse into psychology and behavior).

Don't know where you took that idea from, but sorry to say that you are completely and utterly wrong. Everyone here has their own reason(s), mental, deformity, height, looks, a combination of several things, etc, you know that.
 
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Every incel ever?
I guess the title explicitly says MENTALCELS. Mentalcels = mental health problems. How do you get that I am projecting in every incel ever is beyond me, the title does not even imply that as it says "fucked up mentalcel". AKA mentalcel that was already mental before discovering the blackpill and then it got far worse for realising the nature of relations between humans, emotions, attachments and everything related (aka glimpse into psychology and behavior).

Don't know where you took that idea from, but sorry to say that you are completely and utterly wrong. Everyone here has their own reason(s), mental, deformity, height, looks, a combination of several things, etc, you know that.
i dont give a fuck, i didnt read your verbal diarrhea of a post, its a dumb fucking premise anyway. oh im not rich because im afraid of money oh yeah that makes a lot of sense buddy :feelssus:
 
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OwlGod said:
I abandon people before they can abandon me.
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i dont give a fuck, i didnt read your verbal diarrhea of a post, its a dumb fucking premise anyway. oh im not rich because im afraid of money oh yeah that makes a lot of sense buddy :feelssus:
Now you are just making things up for your initial stupid point that you realised was stupid now tries to play it off.
How can you opinate like that without reading?
True ignorance and arrogance, unexpected to be found here with people looking more and more into it.

The premise anyway, are based on facts, a proved and recognised phobia, and a true a recognised syndrome are cited in it. For that reason, I must say I have a valid point along with observations that lead people to self isolate. As an incel, you should know what leads to isolation sometimes.
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Based and Woke
Agreed. Never attach to anyone. Basically live like an immortal, no bonds = no pains.
 
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SlutLiberationFront said:
I keep the silvery swiss army knife by my side at all times, and if I am not doing anything I keep it in one of my hands. I keep it by my side when I sleep as well. It's just unbelievable how fucked up I ended being. And I am still unable to throw the stax chip bottles away after so many years.
I don't think there is therapy for this shit, maybe I really need to do something with my life before it is way too fucking late, or it already is by this point in time.
Same due to almost being attacked by BBC niggers and Pitbulls on multiple occasions, I have been forced to carry a pocket knife to be on the safe side.
 
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Same due to almost being attacked by BBC niggers and Pitbulls on multiple occasions, I have been forced to carry a pocket knife to be on the safe side.
Holy shit. Were you about to just get "attacked" or did it look like a mugging was going to happen? This can fuck people up and make them pretty paranoid when going out. And these huge dogs out there on the street without supervision makes me extra nervous as well, they can easily rip chunks of flesh off your body.
 
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SlutLiberationFront said:
Holy shit. Were you about to just get "attacked" or did it look like a mugging was going to happen? This can fuck people up and make them pretty paranoid when going out. And these huge dogs out there on the street without supervision makes me extra nervous as well, they can easily rip chunks of flesh off your body.
One time a nigger tried to ride over me with his bike but changed direction at the last second. Fucker was laughing like a Hyena, mentally ill retard. Another time, I was on the train because taking the car in a certain area is very irritating and a tallfag nigger told me to fuck off and leave despite me having done absolutely nothing. I didn't stare at the nigger nor did I say anything. But I got off at the next stop and swapped to a different train car as I am not going to get shanked by a nigger over some gay bullshit pride.

These God damn nigger men are very dangerous and unpredictable; No race but niggers has really threatened to physically attack me on multiple occasions. In some cases, I even cross the street to avoid them as I am a 5'5 manlet and my state had absolute shit self defense laws. So I cannot afford to risk a confrontation.
 
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One time a nigger tried to ride over me with his bike but changed direction at the last second. Fucker was laughing like a Hyena, mentally ill retard. Another time, I was on the train because taking the car in a certain area is very irritating and a tallfag nigger told me to fuck off and leave despite me having done absolutely nothing. I didn't stare at the nigger nor did I say anything. But I got off at the next stop and swapped to a different train car as I am not going to get shanked by a nigger over some gay bullshit pride.

These God damn nigger men are very dangerous and unpredictable; No race but niggers has really threatened to physically attack me on multiple occasions. In some cases, I even cross the street to avoid them as I am a 5'5 manlet and my state had absolute shit self defense laws. So I cannot afford to risk a confrontation.
The fucking ragefuel dude... yeah, hope they mess with the wrong person someday and will learn the hard way, but whoever teacher them a lesson will be punished because globohomo sjw laws.
 
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One time a nigger tried to ride over me with his bike but changed direction at the last second. Fucker was laughing like a Hyena, mentally ill retard. Another time, I was on the train because taking the car in a certain area is very irritating and a tallfag nigger told me to fuck off and leave despite me having done absolutely nothing. I didn't stare at the nigger nor did I say anything. But I got off at the next stop and swapped to a different train car as I am not going to get shanked by a nigger over some gay bullshit pride.
thats NT behaviour, they are asserting themselves as the alphas over the betas/gammas, foids like this a lot. If you don't do that to random people something is wrong w u.
 
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Mentally lost cel said:
Maybe, but I doubt
Might be uncommon, but this type of fear can certainly induce isolation if combined with constant rejection/bullying.
 
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Mentally lost cel said:
No wonder we isolate

Yes, it is kinda stated in the post yet this curryboy fucking idiot wanted to talk shit, then realised it was stupid and tried to play it off. I cite medically recognised syndromes/phobias yet I have to read shit like that from and idiot that doesn't even bother to read the post but wants to deduce what's in it and why the premise is stupid.
Voluntary ignorance and low IQ is what it should be called.

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Oh im not rich because im afraid of money oh yeah that makes a lot of sense buddy :feelssus:
"Chrematophobia: Fear of money. Although born to a wealthy family, he has chrematophobia and lives a spare life. From the Greek chrimata, money + phobia."



Phobia is what takes the sense OUT OF IT, it is not supposed to make sense, dude. Phobia automatically means IRRATIONAL fear, something that DOES NOT MAKE SENSE. Phobias will make people act IRRATIONALLY and think IRRATIONALLY, completely OUT OF SENSE.







Now, if you want to make yourself look even more stupid AND willfully ignorant and arrogant, go ahead, make another stupid point because all you have said was blatantly disproved so far with actual facts.
 
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SlutLiberationFront said:
Yes, it is kinda stated in the post yet this curryboy fucking idiot wanted to talk shit, then realised it was stupid and tried to play it off. I cite medically recognised syndromes/phobias yet I have to read shit like that from and idiot that doesn't even bother to read the post but wants to deduce what's in it and why the premise is stupid.
Voluntary ignorance and low IQ is what it should be called.


"Chrematophobia: Fear of money. Although born to a wealthy family, he has chrematophobia and lives a spare life. From the Greek chrimata, money + phobia."



Phobia is what takes the sense OUT OF IT, it is not supposed to make sense, dude. Phobia automatically means IRRATIONAL fear, something that DOES NOT MAKE SENSE. Phobias will make people act IRRATIONALLY and think IRRATIONALLY, completely OUT OF SENSE.







Now, if you want to make yourself look even more stupid AND willfully ignorant and arrogant, go ahead, make another stupid point because all you have said was blatantly disproved so far with actual facts.
It’sa defense mechanism for us otherwise we treated like shit
 
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I do not even want it now
 
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curryboy420 said:
Shut up nigger
Yes I know it hurts to have your stupid points destroyed and proven wrong time and time again.
Seethe.
 
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I'm grateful for you post. I feel less lonely with my own thoughts after having read it.

I had not heard of cherophobia before. After reading a couple of articles, I still don't have a firm grasp on it. However, I do have thanatophobia. It was completely debilitating until I got onto lamotrigine over a year ago. I was hanging onto reality by a thread. My fear is mostly focused on my loved one's dying - not just those that I have currently but also imagined, future loved ones. I've struggled with this since I was a kid, but the thoughts have worsened with age. I believe there is an OCD element to it.

I'm 23 and, thankfully, have not lost anyone close to me yet. When I think of what it will be like when I eventually do experience a loss, I imagine sinking to the ground and not having the strength to ever get up again. I imagine how it'll feel like having boulders pummeling me when thinking about how they no longer even exist.

I'm not resilient or strong at all when it comes to this matter, and I know that will never change. Therefore, it makes me want to choose isolation over having a relationship - to instead secure the "stable pain, sadness, and loneliness" the other poster mentioned and live on that like that.

I am very lonely in life. I think existential loneliness is the leading contributor to my thanatophobia. I have intrusive thoughts of bad afterlife scenarios where experiencing loneliness and being all alone for eternity are the biggest focal points of that reality.

The loneliness from losing my loved ones cannot be quelled with new relationships. It was the individuals themselves that were important. I don't want to play life's game where you have to find someone new in order to pacify your pain and your human need for companionship.

I desire to have one person to be especially close to - a life-long relationship with a person of the opposite sex whom would be my best friend and intimate with me. A few friends to hang out with occasionally away from that person is important and desirable as well. However, I don't think I'd feel content if I were only just able to have friends. I still feel lonely even when I'm around my friends when I go to see them 1-3 times per year. The black pill and learned misanthropy have made me not really want to make friends or be around people either.

How this ties back in is that having that one person seems like an extremely fragile thing. My two friends are twins. They always have one another, but they also seem satisfied in their friendships that they don't feel pressed to pursue a relationship. I'm quite envious that I don't work like that. It seems so much more secure.

Do you think it's unhealthy to want that one close person? It seems like maybe it is unhealthy when you otherwise feel lonely without there being one. Because I feel so lonely, I feel like I need someone rather than just wanting someone. If they died before me, I think I'd just want to be done and hope that I may see them again. Is it abnormal to feel like their death is not something you can recover from? I've read and hear about people remarrying after their spouse dies, but I can't really find anything on remaining faithful after a spouse’s death. I'm not sure how couples typically feel towards one another or what is normal and okay in a relationship. It's frustrating not understanding relationships.

Anyway, I'm unsure as to whether or not what I wrote could be categorized under cherophobia. I don't think so, but I felt it fit in anyway. I don't believe I can find happiness in this world. I only see the bad things in life. Impermanence gets to me more than any other.
 
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I'm grateful for you post. I feel less lonely with my own thoughts after having read it.

I had not heard of cherophobia before. After reading a couple of articles, I still don't have a firm grasp on it. However, I do have thanatophobia. It was completely debilitating until I got onto lamotrigine over a year ago. I was hanging onto reality by a thread. My fear is mostly focused on my loved one's dying - not just those that I have currently but also imagined, future loved ones. I've struggled with this since I was a kid, but the thoughts have worsened with age. I believe there is an OCD element to it.

I'm 23 and, thankfully, have not lost anyone close to me yet. When I think of what it will be like when I eventually do experience a loss, I imagine sinking to the ground and not having the strength to ever get up again. I imagine how it'll feel like having boulders pummeling me when thinking about how they no longer even exist.

I'm not resilient or strong at all when it comes to this matter, and I know that will never change. Therefore, it makes me want to choose isolation over having a relationship - to instead secure the "stable pain, sadness, and loneliness" the other poster mentioned and live on that like that.

I am very lonely in life. I think existential loneliness is the leading contributor to my thanatophobia. I have intrusive thoughts of bad afterlife scenarios where experiencing loneliness and being all alone for eternity are the biggest focal points of that reality.

The loneliness from losing my loved ones cannot be quelled with new relationships. It was the individuals themselves that were important. I don't want to play life's game where you have to find someone new in order to pacify your pain and your human need for companionship.

I desire to have one person to be especially close to - a life-long relationship with a person of the opposite sex whom would be my best friend and intimate with me. A few friends to hang out with occasionally away from that person is important and desirable as well. However, I don't think I'd feel content if I were only just able to have friends. I still feel lonely even when I'm around my friends when I go to see them 1-3 times per year. The black pill and learned misanthropy have made me not really want to make friends or be around people either.

How this ties back in is that having that one person seems like an extremely fragile thing. My two friends are twins. They always have one another, but they also seem satisfied in their friendships that they don't feel pressed to pursue a relationship. I'm quite envious that I don't work like that. It seems so much more secure.

Do you think it's unhealthy to want that one close person? It seems like maybe it is unhealthy when you otherwise feel lonely without there being one. Because I feel so lonely, I feel like I need someone rather than just wanting someone. If they died before me, I think I'd just want to be done and hope that I may see them again. Is it abnormal to feel like their death is not something you can recover from? I've read and hear about people remarrying after their spouse dies, but I can't really find anything on remaining faithful after a spouse’s death. I'm not sure how couples typically feel towards one another or what is normal and okay in a relationship. It's frustrating not understanding relationships.

Anyway, I'm unsure as to whether or not what I wrote could be categorized under cherophobia. I don't think so, but I felt it fit in anyway. I don't believe I can find happiness in this world. I only see the bad things in life. Impermanence gets to me more than any other.
A reply that unfortunately... is too relatable for me, TOO relatable. This hits too close to home, every part of it, and since it is every part of it, I had to quote the entire reply, because it really ALL relatable.
 
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Yes I know it hurts to have your stupid points destroyed and proven wrong time and time again.
Seethe.
'Seethe' says the guy writing entire essays because his butt is steaming hard:soy:
 
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'Seethe' says the guy writing entire essays because his butt is steaming hard:soy:
Yes, putting effort in an area of the forum dedicated to posts that require effort is very bad. When I just want to shitpot and talk shit I go to the sewers. This is place for discussion and not useless shit, so I am trying to bring something here rather than talking shit about something I didn't even read that cites officially recognised things by science.

You are only make yourself look stupider with each reply. But if you want to be civil, lets be civil to each other because now you are just acting like an ape like that rest of society.
 
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Yes, putting effort in an area of the forum dedicated to posts that require effort is very bad. When I just want to shitpot and talk shit I go to the sewers. This is place for discussion and not useless shit, so I am trying to bring something here rather than talking shit about something I didn't even read that cites officially recognised things by science.

You are only make yourself look stupider with each reply. But if you want to be civil, lets be civil to each other because now you are just acting like an ape like that rest of society.
Shut up nigger
 
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Shut up nigger
Intergalact IQ reply. How long did it take for you to come up with that? Astounding, peer-reviewed reply with all the facts we need, proven and predict everything as they should.

Yeah man, keep making yourself looking stupider after all your stupidity got utterly disproved because of your own willful ignorance and arrogance.
 
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Intergalact IQ reply. How long did it take for you to come up with that? Astounding, peer-reviewed reply with all the facts we need, proven and predict everything as they should.

Yeah man, keep making yourself looking stupider after all your stupidity got utterly disproved because of your own willful ignorance and arrogance.
Maybe you're not a nigger, now i will call you a jew

Fuck off jew
 
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Maybe you're not a nigger, now i will call you a jew

Fuck off jew
Damn you for reminding me that I will be forced to take the second dose of the Jew AstraPoison vax today or next week because it is now mandatory and we will need it to get everywhere and even use transportation.
 
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Damn you for reminding me that I will be forced to take the second dose of the Jew AstraPoison vax today or next week because it is now mandatory and we will need it to get everywhere and even use transportation.
Just get a car nigga I drove without a license or insurance for a year and i live in a police state
 
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Just get a car nigga I drove without a license or insurance for a year and i live in a police state
If I need to go somewhere I go with my mom on her car because when I have to go, it is with her because it is something that I generally need to do or she will need help with, last week it was going to the bank to sign papers and shit. But if I need to go somewhere by myself someday for something or get somewhere, some restaurant or idk, I will need the "vaxx passport" bullshit, so I have no option, it's mandatory and forced.
 
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Normies use this kind of gaslighting a lot, telling people they are sabotaging themselves. You are not afraid of happiness, but afraid of losing it since it is so difficult to get it. If others would help there would be no problem, so the fault does not lie with the individual
 
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Normies use this kind of gaslighting a lot, telling people they are sabotaging themselves. You are not afraid of happiness, but afraid of losing it since it is so difficult to get it. If others would help there would be no problem, so the fault does not lie with the individual
It is all very dependent on a series of factors, environmental, personal, and the people around, that were, or are around. Too many factors to consider and list.
 
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If I need to go somewhere I go with my mom on her car because when I have to go, it is with her because it is something that I generally need to do or she will need help with, last week it was going to the bank to sign papers and shit. But if I need to go somewhere by myself someday for something or get somewhere, some restaurant or idk, I will need the "vaxx passport" bullshit, so I have no option, it's mandatory and forced.
Lol where do you live nigger I just walk into restaurants and if they ask me to so the covid qr shit I just say I dont have a phone
 
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One time a nigger tried to ride over me with his bike but changed direction at the last second. Fucker was laughing like a Hyena, mentally ill retard. Another time, I was on the train because taking the car in a certain area is very irritating and a tallfag nigger told me to fuck off and leave despite me having done absolutely nothing. I didn't stare at the nigger nor did I say anything. But I got off at the next stop and swapped to a different train car as I am not going to get shanked by a nigger over some gay bullshit pride.

These God damn nigger men are very dangerous and unpredictable; No race but niggers has really threatened to physically attack me on multiple occasions. In some cases, I even cross the street to avoid them as I am a 5'5 manlet and my state had absolute shit self defense laws. So I cannot afford to risk a confrontation.
Niggers keep on shooting fireworks in my neighborhood and waking me up at night with their loud music playing.

One tallfag, obese nigger was running on the subway platform when I was in my freshman year of HS and almost crashed into me: if he did not turn at the last second, I'd be in the emergency room back then.

Another time, I once accidentally nudged this slow sheboon in the hallway to get to my bus and her thug nigger BF forcefully grabbed me by my backpack and threatened to push me to the floor.

They also shot a loaded gun around my block in one of their car gatherings and got the police called after they sped away.

Very terrifying and unpredictable, but more and more zoomer blacks are now soy and fags: you shouldn't worry any longer about the next generation.
 
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Lol where do you live nigger I just walk into restaurants and if they ask me to so the covid qr shit I just say I dont have a phone
Low IQ curry tbh.
 
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Niggers keep on shooting fireworks in my neighborhood and waking me up at night with their loud music playing.

One tallfag, obese nigger was running on the subway platform when I was in my freshman year of HS and almost crashed into me: if he did not turn at the last second, I'd be in the emergency room back then.

Another time, I once accidentally nudged this slow sheboon in the hallway to get to my bus and her thug nigger BF forcefully grabbed me by my backpack and threatened to push me to the floor.

They also shot a loaded gun around my block in one of their car gatherings and got the police called after they sped away.

Very terrifying and unpredictable, but more and more zoomer blacks are now soy and fags: you shouldn't worry any longer about the next generation.
Sounds like every place ever that got infested by this type of people. Every single one of them turns into exactly the same shit. Happens all around the planet. Infuriating. Maybe if they were not like that, no one would complain and everyone would get along but they have to act like apes and uncivilized all the fucking time.
 
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