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Steelcel
Recruit
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- Joined
- Dec 27, 2019
- Posts
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My very best friend since high school just called me today. I was so excited since I haven’t seen him all year. In the past he would always make time for me, even when he could have been out slaying pusy he would always call or we would go fishing together and go camping. Seeing as he is married and has kids, I can’t really blame him for not having time to hang out with a loser like me.
In the past he would call me out of the blue just to see how I was coping, invite me out for a beer or a BBQ. He is literally the only person to ever text or call besides my mother.
I get a missed call from him and I call him back, we chat, he asks how I am, seems more concerned than usual, says I sound different and then asked about my mental health, he asks if I’m really ok?
I consider telling him that I can’t cope and my suicide is planed but I just say I’m fine.
Turns out I’m not as good of an actor as I thought but I’m glad to know that at least one person cares enough about me to notice a subtle change.
Conversation shifts to the share market; I have a decent size portfolio and he has a modest one so this isn’t out of the ordinary for us to talk about.
Then he drops it on me.
He wants to borrow money to buy the dip.
It hit me like a ton of bricks, I just sat there on the phone, silent for the next 30 seconds while he started throwing numbers and stats at me. God I just feel like such a fucking idiot. I’ve been extremely socially isolated for years and he knows it so he butters me up and makes me feel like he cares about me then goes in for the close.
Its never enough for these people, isn’t it enough to be sexually successful, have a wife who loves you and have a young family?
I thought as a 30yo incel I was at rock bottom and nothing could touch me but this has me at a new low
TLDR: no one gives a fuck about you.
In the past he would call me out of the blue just to see how I was coping, invite me out for a beer or a BBQ. He is literally the only person to ever text or call besides my mother.
I get a missed call from him and I call him back, we chat, he asks how I am, seems more concerned than usual, says I sound different and then asked about my mental health, he asks if I’m really ok?
I consider telling him that I can’t cope and my suicide is planed but I just say I’m fine.
Turns out I’m not as good of an actor as I thought but I’m glad to know that at least one person cares enough about me to notice a subtle change.
Conversation shifts to the share market; I have a decent size portfolio and he has a modest one so this isn’t out of the ordinary for us to talk about.
Then he drops it on me.
He wants to borrow money to buy the dip.
It hit me like a ton of bricks, I just sat there on the phone, silent for the next 30 seconds while he started throwing numbers and stats at me. God I just feel like such a fucking idiot. I’ve been extremely socially isolated for years and he knows it so he butters me up and makes me feel like he cares about me then goes in for the close.
Its never enough for these people, isn’t it enough to be sexually successful, have a wife who loves you and have a young family?
I thought as a 30yo incel I was at rock bottom and nothing could touch me but this has me at a new low
TLDR: no one gives a fuck about you.