BookwormCel
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She was much better looking than me, I knew I don't stand a chance, but while being drunk I swore that I would do it. I knew she would reject me. So I thought: yeah, whatever, she probably has a bf or something, I'll just do it I don't care.
So I asked the foid out using my (kinda figuratively speaking) 'autistic' creativity and it worked. I don't think she interpreted it as something romantic and from the start I realized it was purely out of politeness/pity.
Just after I invited her we went to a diner together with some other normies (friends of her, I invited myself, you could say..,.) and I saw her cuddling and touching one of the chads, totally ignoring me. I was MOGGED brutally, feeling like a total cuck. Yet I was a fool to have a 'hope'.
Every time I tried to arrange a 'date' using the messenger she would reply after like 10-12 hours after I send my message and she'd always find some excuse not to go. I was so infatuated that I couldn't even sleep, thinking about her. I wasted time and energy for nothing, couldn't concentrate on anything. I was so infatuated. Finally I was ABLE to arrange the meeting. But, guess what. Next day there's yet another excuse. And you could just tell by her style of messaging and the time it takes her to reply that she DOESNT FUCKING CARE.
And so I realized what a fucking idiot fool I was all that time. total buffoon. So I was in a rage and wrote to her that I know she agreed to meet me just to be polite and that she may not trouble herself since I do not wish to see her anymore. And you know what? She never replied. So that proves she literally never gave a fuck about me
On that day I got drunk heavily.
The next day I even cried a little. It's like I thought I had a chance but it was a stupid DELUSION.The truth is, IT NEVER BEGAN and I was a fucking idiot.
But I think I'm relatively OK now, slowly finding some peace of mind I guess.
But this is so UNFAIR. As long as you're born with this set of genes WOMEN LITERALLY ASK YOU OUT, touch you, cuddle you etc.. And if you're ugly you GET NOTHING. YOU DON'T GET A CHANCE. It's a fact of biology. Women will always prefer chads and you can do NOTHING about it.
I never held I woman hand. Never had a friendly/romantic chat with a woman. Never danced with a woman, never touched a woman in a romantic way. Never was some girl's sexual dream. Never got proper romantic attention/ interest from women. Facing the reality, all I ever experienced was alienation and contempt from women. I will probably just stop trying. Takes a lot of effort and only brings you pain. Stupid BS.
So I asked the foid out using my (kinda figuratively speaking) 'autistic' creativity and it worked. I don't think she interpreted it as something romantic and from the start I realized it was purely out of politeness/pity.
Just after I invited her we went to a diner together with some other normies (friends of her, I invited myself, you could say..,.) and I saw her cuddling and touching one of the chads, totally ignoring me. I was MOGGED brutally, feeling like a total cuck. Yet I was a fool to have a 'hope'.
Every time I tried to arrange a 'date' using the messenger she would reply after like 10-12 hours after I send my message and she'd always find some excuse not to go. I was so infatuated that I couldn't even sleep, thinking about her. I wasted time and energy for nothing, couldn't concentrate on anything. I was so infatuated. Finally I was ABLE to arrange the meeting. But, guess what. Next day there's yet another excuse. And you could just tell by her style of messaging and the time it takes her to reply that she DOESNT FUCKING CARE.
And so I realized what a fucking idiot fool I was all that time. total buffoon. So I was in a rage and wrote to her that I know she agreed to meet me just to be polite and that she may not trouble herself since I do not wish to see her anymore. And you know what? She never replied. So that proves she literally never gave a fuck about me
On that day I got drunk heavily.
The next day I even cried a little. It's like I thought I had a chance but it was a stupid DELUSION.The truth is, IT NEVER BEGAN and I was a fucking idiot.
But I think I'm relatively OK now, slowly finding some peace of mind I guess.
But this is so UNFAIR. As long as you're born with this set of genes WOMEN LITERALLY ASK YOU OUT, touch you, cuddle you etc.. And if you're ugly you GET NOTHING. YOU DON'T GET A CHANCE. It's a fact of biology. Women will always prefer chads and you can do NOTHING about it.
I never held I woman hand. Never had a friendly/romantic chat with a woman. Never danced with a woman, never touched a woman in a romantic way. Never was some girl's sexual dream. Never got proper romantic attention/ interest from women. Facing the reality, all I ever experienced was alienation and contempt from women. I will probably just stop trying. Takes a lot of effort and only brings you pain. Stupid BS.
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