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I can't even get through one day without constant reminders of my subhuman status.
I was at a grocery store deli that is mostly staffed my men but there is this one becky server. I try my best to avoid being served by her but she was the only one working the counter at that time. I did the rest of my shopping and circled back to the deli. It wasn't very busy so she was still the only attendant. I considered leaving but I wanted a special type of bacon so fuck it I went and stood by the display and waited to be served. There was 2 guys there before me, as she served the first she had a big smile and asked the guy about his day and just the standard customer service stuff. She handed him his paper wrapped product and said have a nice day. While the 2nd guy was being served he inquired about a particular cheese which led to them having a conversation about it and she inquired about this guys taste ect ect. Again, just normal customer service pleasantries. She hands him his paper wrapped product, is their anything else I can get you? Ok have a nice day ect ect. Then without even saying anything she just walks off into the back room and leaves me standing there with no "sory sir just a minute I have to do something out the back" or whatever, nothing, just walks away and leaves me standing there. 1 minute later she returns and just stands silently behind the counter looking at me. No smile or "what can i get you today" nothing.There's an awkward silence then I ask for what I want, she doesn't say a word as she gets it. God she was so disgusted by my existence that she can't even go through the standard customer service pleasantries that should just be automated in her at this point. She doesn't even hand it to me she just plops in on the counter and said "is that it?", yes I said and then she just turns around and walks away, no "have a nice day" nothing. I'm ugly but I'm not even trucel.
As a sub 8 the dating world is closed off but as a sub 5 you can't even expect to have platonic meaningless conversation or just be treated as a human being. Im stuck in this fucking flesh prison doomed to be hated until the day I die which I pray is soon.
I was at a grocery store deli that is mostly staffed my men but there is this one becky server. I try my best to avoid being served by her but she was the only one working the counter at that time. I did the rest of my shopping and circled back to the deli. It wasn't very busy so she was still the only attendant. I considered leaving but I wanted a special type of bacon so fuck it I went and stood by the display and waited to be served. There was 2 guys there before me, as she served the first she had a big smile and asked the guy about his day and just the standard customer service stuff. She handed him his paper wrapped product and said have a nice day. While the 2nd guy was being served he inquired about a particular cheese which led to them having a conversation about it and she inquired about this guys taste ect ect. Again, just normal customer service pleasantries. She hands him his paper wrapped product, is their anything else I can get you? Ok have a nice day ect ect. Then without even saying anything she just walks off into the back room and leaves me standing there with no "sory sir just a minute I have to do something out the back" or whatever, nothing, just walks away and leaves me standing there. 1 minute later she returns and just stands silently behind the counter looking at me. No smile or "what can i get you today" nothing.There's an awkward silence then I ask for what I want, she doesn't say a word as she gets it. God she was so disgusted by my existence that she can't even go through the standard customer service pleasantries that should just be automated in her at this point. She doesn't even hand it to me she just plops in on the counter and said "is that it?", yes I said and then she just turns around and walks away, no "have a nice day" nothing. I'm ugly but I'm not even trucel.
As a sub 8 the dating world is closed off but as a sub 5 you can't even expect to have platonic meaningless conversation or just be treated as a human being. Im stuck in this fucking flesh prison doomed to be hated until the day I die which I pray is soon.
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