It's Over Total suffering

[edger0uter]

I’ve had my own apartment for a while but never actually lived in it because my stuff wasn’t there and it lacked some furniture. I got it because I planned to start cooking for myself in order to lose weight, get disciplined by having to take care of my own ass, and to have a more space than in my 3x3m room. Now, after months of paying rent while not living there, buying furniture from all kinds of places, and transferring the most important things over, I actually started to live there.

Initially, I thought this would be an awesome idea. I wouldn‘t have to deal with my dad telling me to get a job, to finish my drivers license, and to buy things he‘s too lazy to go out for himself, I would be able to be as loud as I want while gaming at night, I could walk around naked or take a shit with the door open if I wanted to, and all that whilst improving myself and possibly eventually escaping inceldom.

It‘s horrible. I am suffering every single day. In fact, as I‘m typing this, I‘m crying. I thought I was alone before, now I am truly alone. Despite knowing that I will get nothing out of it, i am using 8 dating apps at once, trying to find someone to keep me company.

Not only that, I am dead broke. I am in the negative. I can‘t even cope with buying things/food anymore.

Because my life has been getting worse, I also started letting go a little. I do things I know are bad for me, I don’t work on the company I started with my best friend, despite putting money into it, and I keep thinking about suicide. I‘m not very far away from writing notes to the most important people and then slitting my neck to bleed out quickly.

I honestly don‘t even know what the point of this post is. I just wanted to get this out of my system, I guess.

 

[HONKLERedux]

make more money

 

[edger0uter]

make more money

If I actually worked on the company I started with my friend, I‘d actually have some more money, but with my mental state, all I‘m exceptionally well at is rotting in bed.

Having more money wouldn’t even make me happier, though, unless it‘s a lifechanging amount. Sure, I could buy cool things but I‘d still be a fat mentalcel, I‘d still have to sleep by myself in my apartment, and I‘d still lack the discipline and motivation to change myself for the better.

 

[incelsonxboxlive]

If there's a will there's a way

 

[edger0uter]

If there's a will there's a way

There is no will.

 

[incelsonxboxlive]

There is no will.

Do you truly care for a future? You said you invested money into a company, and that the idea of moving out seemed good at first, no?

 

[HONKLERedux]

There is no will.

your problem

 

[edger0uter]

Do you truly care for a future? You said you invested money into a company, and that the idea of moving out seemed good at first, no?

I used to care. I invested money into it, yes, and I initially thought it would be a good idea. Then I found out how difficult it is for me to do anything in my current state.

Similar thing with the moving out - initially a good idea - freedom, discipline and what not - but now that I‘ve actually done it and I‘m all alone in my apartment, I started hating it.

If I could, I wish I could reverse my decision to move out and to start this company. I just wanna lay in my room all day, play some video games here and there, smoke, masturbate, etc. without worrying about paying rent or working for the company.

I am honestly not made for this life. No money, no women, crippling depression, obesity… Either something kills me naturally, or I will do it myself, eventually.

 

[edger0uter]

your problem

Sorry living life as an incel isn‘t as enjoyable for me as it seems to be for you???

 

[Pancakecel]

Why would you rent an apartment, without immediately moving into it? How much money did you waste on rent, for the time you were not even there.

I don't understand.

 

[edger0uter]

Why would you rent an apartment, without immediately moving into it? How much money did you waste on rent, for the time you were not even there.

I don't understand.

I planned to move in immediately, but my dad had other plans - he insisted that we buy every piece of furniture brand new, and that took a LOT of time. Visiting different stores, picking out something that doesn't cost a fortune but also looks decent, waiting for delivery (one of the stores even fucked our delivery up, and we received something way later than we should have), ...

Had it been up to me, I would have bought used furniture, picked it up with the help of a friend or two, and that's it.

If I had to guess, he intentionally made this whole thing as difficult as humanly possible to keep me from moving. I don't know why he would want me to stay so desperately. Maybe so he can take advantage of me and the money I am supposed to make? He kept yapping about buying a car that we all as a family share, with both his and my money.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Honestly moving back in with your parents is probably gonna be your only option. Rot a little while, and try to get out more. Hopefully in time you'll get out of the mental fatigue you are in.

 

[edger0uter]

Honestly moving back in with your parents is probably gonna be your only option. Rot a little while, and try to get out more. Hopefully in time you'll get out of the mental fatigue you are in.

Not really an option, currently. Perhaps after letting some time pass - it‘s only been a few days since I started living here and too much money and time has been invested into this for me to just leave.

Where should I go out to? I‘m an incel. I can‘t go out to a park and approach women - I‘m already fucking my life up enough anyway.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Not really an option, currently. Perhaps after letting some time pass - it‘s only been a few days since I started living here and too much money and time has been invested into this for me to just leave.

Where should I go out to? I‘m an incel. I can‘t go out to a park and approach women - I‘m already fucking my life up enough anyway.

Doing the bare minimum is all we can do. Either NEETbuxx or a part time job is it really.

When we don't work we just spend time trying to cope. So whatever you do it's gonna suck either way.

However roping should be avoided unless there is no other option left.

 

[edger0uter]

Doing the bare minimum is all we can do. Either NEETbuxx or a part time job is it really.

When we don't work we just spend time trying to cope. So whatever you do it's gonna suck either way.

However roping should be avoided unless there is no other option left.

• Though I am losing weight because of my lacking appetite, caused by my horrible mental state, I am very obese. I don't have a scale over here yet, but I'd guess weigh around 130kgs at 1,80m and 22 years of age. If I wanted to fix this (at least partially because being this fat causes permanent damage, probably), I would have to grind for about a whole year straight, without relapsing, and how do you expect not only me with my fucked up mental state, but the average person to do that?
• I am in the negative. I will get some money from the state eventually, but that will barely be enough to pay everything back and to pay for my bills - I honestly don't know if I'll have money left over for things like food
• I started a company with my best friend and, unless he is there with me, I cannot get myself to participate. I am supposed to be making websites for customers, but even thinking about having to beef with WordPress and Elementor makes me want to give up this entire idea
• I have no girlfriend, and getting one is practically impossible with me being out of shape (duh). The only matches I get on the 8 dating apps I am using at once are bots, whores promoting their OF and women that are retarded to the point where their idea of love and relationships comes from Disney movies and dating them would probably count as a crime
• I cannot get a job. I am not trying to get one but when I tried, I wasn't able to find anything, despite trying everything, including making a website for myself employers can look at. A friend and former co-worker of mine that was fired a long time before I was, still is looking for jobs and all he gets are interviews that don't go anywhere, despite the fact he's more educated than me (university).

Unless a mommy dom girlfriend spawns out of nowhere and decides to "adopt me" and force me to get better, I don't think there are many other options left besides roping.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

• Though I am losing weight because of my lacking appetite, caused by my horrible mental state, I am very obese. I don't have a scale over here yet, but I'd guess weigh around 130kgs at 1,80m and 22 years of age. If I wanted to fix this (at least partially because being this fat causes permanent damage, probably), I would have to grind for about a whole year straight, without relapsing, and how do you expect not only me with my fucked up mental state, but the average person to do that?
• I am in the negative. I will get some money from the state eventually, but that will barely be enough to pay everything back and to pay for my bills - I honestly don't know if I'll have money left over for things like food
• I started a company with my best friend and, unless he is there with me, I cannot get myself to participate. I am supposed to be making websites for customers, but even thinking about having to beef with WordPress and Elementor makes me want to give up this entire idea
• I have no girlfriend, and getting one is practically impossible with me being out of shape (duh). The only matches I get on the 8 dating apps I am using at once are bots, whores promoting their OF and women that are retarded to the point where their idea of love and relationships comes from Disney movies and dating them would probably count as a crime
• I cannot get a job. I am not trying to get one but when I tried, I wasn't able to find anything, despite trying everything, including making a website for myself employers can look at. A friend and former co-worker of mine that was fired a long time before I was, still is looking for jobs and all he gets are interviews that don't go anywhere, despite the fact he's more educated than me (university).

Unless a mommy dom girlfriend spawns out of nowhere and decides to "adopt me" and force me to get better, I don't think there are many other options left besides roping.

I'm just trying to provide some options mango. In the end the decision is up to you.

I'm in a similar state as well. I can't bring myself to do anything. Been NEETing for about 6 months. I'm not ready to go back.

 

[VλREN]

Unless a mommy dom girlfriend spawns out of nowhere and decides to "adopt me" and force me to get better, I don't think there are many other options left besides roping.

Every man has that delusional fantasy in the back their mind (subconsciously or consciously)

 

[VλREN]

Life mogs me

But Do you brush your teeth atleast?

I know it probably seems that it doesn’t matter much, but it’s a must tbh.

I neglected my teeth when I was 13/14 and I am still feeling the damage