Recently, I became so desperate for intimacy with a woman, so I downloaded all dating apps. From past experience, I never received likes from girls my age, so this time I decided to only search for older women because I thought they were easier to get, but i was wrong. After a couple days of grinding for a real match, I gave up and Uninstalled all dating apps.
The day after, it was the first day of the semester at my college, this is when I was reminded of how lonely and pathetic my life is. I saw so many girls wearing tight clothing that revealed their bodies, i saw them enjoying their lives with their chad boyfriends. It hurts even more to know that I will never be with any girl because of my looks. They only give their attention to guys that are good-looking looking/cute/handsome.
When I came back home, i felt a sharp pain in my heart, I realized that I was experiencing a panic attack, my hands were shaking, my hands were sweating, I felt a weird combination of sadness and anger. I was consumed with so much hate that I wanted to see the world be burned and all humans dying.
I missed my 2 Month vacation it was so peaceful, but now my college is requiring to stay another 2 years. I have lost faith in humanity, my life is cruel and unfair. I hope the pain goes away, I'm in my bed now, and I'll sleep until I feel better
The day after, it was the first day of the semester at my college, this is when I was reminded of how lonely and pathetic my life is. I saw so many girls wearing tight clothing that revealed their bodies, i saw them enjoying their lives with their chad boyfriends. It hurts even more to know that I will never be with any girl because of my looks. They only give their attention to guys that are good-looking looking/cute/handsome.
When I came back home, i felt a sharp pain in my heart, I realized that I was experiencing a panic attack, my hands were shaking, my hands were sweating, I felt a weird combination of sadness and anger. I was consumed with so much hate that I wanted to see the world be burned and all humans dying.
I missed my 2 Month vacation it was so peaceful, but now my college is requiring to stay another 2 years. I have lost faith in humanity, my life is cruel and unfair. I hope the pain goes away, I'm in my bed now, and I'll sleep until I feel better
