For the first 25 years of my life I thought that it was good to be a good guy. People treated me like shit for behaving this way and used me. Now that I'm 30 I despise humanity and frequently fantasize about awful things happening to people I know and random normies. This is why I love the pandemic and what it has done to normies, Staceys, and Chads. I love how it's ruining their social and sex lives and even some of their weddings. It's hilarious. I pray and hope that people who fucked with me in life wind up dead from it.
I hope the pandemic never ends. I love the isolation it has forced normies into and I legitimately hope they are suffering and continue to suffer as I have in isolation for the past 15 years. Like The Joker, I just want to watch the world burn. When you're a truecel who has been hurt their entire lives by humanity, you want to watch it suffer and feel the pain you have felt.
I want the world to burn and eat itself. I want there to be race riots, violence, a killer virus pandemic for years, civil war, an more. No, I'm not joking. If and when this all happens and the boogaloo takes place along with the apocalypse and societal collapse, I will simply stay in my room in my house like I've been doing for 15 years, armed to the teeth and with all the stuff I need to cope and live, and just wait it out. If anyone tries to attack me, I'll deal with them.
I've prepped for this for years because I'm used to the pain and isolation. When all the devastation is done, I'll emerge from my home safe and hopefully better off than the people who abused and hurt me for so long.
It's a fantasy that must become a reality. I need this.