Basically the title, I am a very romantic man, the only time I really fell in love with a woman it was not because of her physical appearance but because I really liked her the way she was, I did stupid things like bringing her gifts, writing her love letters and giving her flowers. And nothing worked. Since then I still think about her constantly every day even though it's been almost 10 years now. Basically yes, I'm still in love with her. Also I'm a traditionalist man who believes in things like traditional heterosexual relationships (man and woman married for the rest of their lives, no divorce, no cheating on either side). I wish with all my soul I had been born 200 years ago even if my quality of life was much worse and I died at 30 from some random disease. Even that was better than my life, because at least I would have married a virgin who I would have had to love for the rest of my life. At least I would be surrounded by traditional people like me. This modern world is horrible and cruel, there is nothing worth living for. I constantly fantasize about getting married and having a big family, about dedicating my life to my wife and children. I don't feel like working or doing anything, I just want to stay a NEET and rot away until I die. Why the hell would I work when my life has absolutely no meaning? I will never get married, I will never have children, I will never have a big family that I wake up every day to fight for. This life has no meaning, the best day of my life will be the day I die.
