Strong One
I live only for revenge
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"I was an incel until age 32. It makes me endlessly sad that I missed out on life and never had the opportunity to be with a young woman. This feeling developed when I first heard that my partner (33y) had sexual experiences when she was young. Now I ruminate daily on the fact that I will never experience anything like that. The overwhelming majority of men will experience what it’s like to feel attraction from a youthful-looking woman who is at her peak of physical attractiveness.
When I see old photos of my partner, I see her youthful physical appearance in those photos and compare it to her now, and realize what I have missed. There is a clear difference between her and women who are 20 years old. Every time I see a young couple on the streets, this feeling of missing out is triggered again. Now I spend more time at home to make coping easier. Also, porn (where young women are shown) no longer turns me on, and instead makes me sad, because it just reminds me of what I have missed. So, I've cut porn from my life (yay!), but the reason is different compared to addicts.
My girlfriend knows what I’m going through, but of course she can’t turn back the clock. I don't know how to resolve this, and I feel suicidal regularly because of this. Please, I need help."
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