this is probably a stupid thread, but as a black dude i dont have any black friends i actually chill with so dont have any one to ask this other than my asian and white friends but i dont mind answers from all that read this anyways. All my family i dont like them, and they dont like me either, especially my own parents, they exhibit the worst traits of black culture a lot. black culture what is it? that hyper aggressive and sexual behavior, acting like a victim all the time, never learning to do better, not being self aware and shit.
it just gets to me, im starting to feel more racist to my own people, not everyone black has to follow it our culture because other blacks do, thats how i feel. i just find many blacks do, like why? im black but i dont follow black culture, and cause of that all my life i get called white man or white worshiper. its fucking stupid to me, honestly i could not give a fuck about anything race. i guess im just really cheesed with the way my parents talk to me everyday, its degrading and just feels abusive. always telling me how im not black enough, just like the fucking foids too lol it all just seems like a joke after a while. whats wrong with a black guy wanting to go to work, not complain about it and do his fucking job, they think i must be a retarded because i actually love going into work in the morning, sorry i didnt waste my youth like you. they fucking hate how i read literature from white authors, but many white authors have the best books i feel, i couldn't give a fuck if a dog wrote a good book, i like to read intellect stuff, not watch nba and talk about how fat of an ass that girl has, etc you know what im talking about if u grew up in america or watch BET like niggas have a script they gotta follow every morning when they wake up, fucking annoys me. and most of the bullying comes from all the cloths i wear (since i work construction i wear construction type clothing/apparently white people clothing) and how i just act in general, i dont shout or talk loudly over others, i fucking just like to do my own shit, not cause trouble and try to live a peaceful life. im starting to think im crazy for not acting black, like are all blacks suppose to be the same. im not expecting an answer to all this, just wondering if others feel the same way i do, i rarely ever meet good black people, and most i meet i feel they want me to act a certain way or im a traitor and waste of air. like i know i am already, but fuck these people for making me feel shit for not caring about culture, like what fucking culture, getting know where in life complaining about everything and expecting others to do everything for you, i really just hate how many blacks act here, its a pity, they have a human brain like me but dont even use it. fuck me for liking art, and classical music, and camping, and studying history and philosophy, and everything else about me that doesn't prove im a nigger like them. i think thats what they want to hear from me. end rant
it just gets to me, im starting to feel more racist to my own people, not everyone black has to follow it our culture because other blacks do, thats how i feel. i just find many blacks do, like why? im black but i dont follow black culture, and cause of that all my life i get called white man or white worshiper. its fucking stupid to me, honestly i could not give a fuck about anything race. i guess im just really cheesed with the way my parents talk to me everyday, its degrading and just feels abusive. always telling me how im not black enough, just like the fucking foids too lol it all just seems like a joke after a while. whats wrong with a black guy wanting to go to work, not complain about it and do his fucking job, they think i must be a retarded because i actually love going into work in the morning, sorry i didnt waste my youth like you. they fucking hate how i read literature from white authors, but many white authors have the best books i feel, i couldn't give a fuck if a dog wrote a good book, i like to read intellect stuff, not watch nba and talk about how fat of an ass that girl has, etc you know what im talking about if u grew up in america or watch BET like niggas have a script they gotta follow every morning when they wake up, fucking annoys me. and most of the bullying comes from all the cloths i wear (since i work construction i wear construction type clothing/apparently white people clothing) and how i just act in general, i dont shout or talk loudly over others, i fucking just like to do my own shit, not cause trouble and try to live a peaceful life. im starting to think im crazy for not acting black, like are all blacks suppose to be the same. im not expecting an answer to all this, just wondering if others feel the same way i do, i rarely ever meet good black people, and most i meet i feel they want me to act a certain way or im a traitor and waste of air. like i know i am already, but fuck these people for making me feel shit for not caring about culture, like what fucking culture, getting know where in life complaining about everything and expecting others to do everything for you, i really just hate how many blacks act here, its a pity, they have a human brain like me but dont even use it. fuck me for liking art, and classical music, and camping, and studying history and philosophy, and everything else about me that doesn't prove im a nigger like them. i think thats what they want to hear from me. end rant
