Everybody in my life has treated me like trash, I try to be nice and kind to others, I care about them and i put in effort in my relationships but they always think of me as lower than them, I'm always the outcast in every social group. Even in a incel discord i'm in i get ignored and laughed, Everybody is fake and scum and this world is a joke i've always been thinking about suicide ever since i was 7 years old because my dad used to physically abuse me and my mom would emotionally abuse me and slap me. Idc about people's pity i just wanted to make this post to leave my final thoughts i'll probably not come back to the forum for another few months then on the day i want to do it i will make a final last day post lol i'm just tired of it all why can't i stop playing the game why am i forced to suffer and play it, life will never get better i can't even geomax i just found out i'm 5'6 and i have antisocial personality disorder there's no hope for me and even if i get my dick wet it won't change anything i'll never have love or be wanted by anyone. I just want to be normal and have friends why can't i even have that why is life so cruel