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I remember back in HS I fell for this girl. I talked to her, complemented blah blah but she was always curving me. It wasn't my first crush but probably the most intense feeling. Anyway after a year or so I finally got the courage to just go for it, just ask her out. It was the first girl I ever asked out. I still remember it. As soon as it came out my mouth, it was just an immediate "No." Just looked me dead in the eyes with absolutely no hesitation. I remember just trying to get thru the class then in my last one I just slumped my head and started tearing up.
From that point on I got some sort of super motivation to just become the best person I could be. Clearly I wasn't good enough, so I just had to try harder. It was going to be my revenge. I was gonna prove that she missed out big time. So I focused on my grades, got into a good school, got on that STEM time. It was gonna pay off wasn't it? That's how the nerds and geeks got ahead right? Anyway a couple years later, I stumbled upon her on FB and had a look. She ended up getting into a LTR after HS with a decent guy. Seems like a decent social circle. Typically normie life.
Meanwhile, here's me. NO GF ever. Lost all my friends after school. Nobody gives a fuck about the STEM degree except my parents. The only thing I got going for me is careermax but I only make average. All that time striving so hard. Trying that "self-improvement" crap. And the result? Nothing. I'm just the good little wageslave society wants me to be. There's no reward. No rainbow at the end of the tunnel. No justice. You just pay bills then you die.
Sad.
From that point on I got some sort of super motivation to just become the best person I could be. Clearly I wasn't good enough, so I just had to try harder. It was going to be my revenge. I was gonna prove that she missed out big time. So I focused on my grades, got into a good school, got on that STEM time. It was gonna pay off wasn't it? That's how the nerds and geeks got ahead right? Anyway a couple years later, I stumbled upon her on FB and had a look. She ended up getting into a LTR after HS with a decent guy. Seems like a decent social circle. Typically normie life.
Meanwhile, here's me. NO GF ever. Lost all my friends after school. Nobody gives a fuck about the STEM degree except my parents. The only thing I got going for me is careermax but I only make average. All that time striving so hard. Trying that "self-improvement" crap. And the result? Nothing. I'm just the good little wageslave society wants me to be. There's no reward. No rainbow at the end of the tunnel. No justice. You just pay bills then you die.
Sad.