I don't want to make this into a huge essay so i'll just keep it short.(mission failed lol but do read this till the end)
Basically 5 years ago i was on a trip in the countryside with my family and relatives, the girl who i could've had sexual experience is my cousin ( i know don't judge me) who was 12 at the time and i was 15, so we were staying at her Family's house me and my brother were sleeping in same room while she was sleeping in another room with her mother and my mom+sis+other female relatives. as fate would have it one night my brother fell asleep in her bed and so my mom and aunt didn't bother waking him up so she decided to sleep in my room, of course with us being cousins and all and with her basically being a kid (in my family's eyes) nobody thought it was inappropriate.
I'll be frank i was of the same opinion until she took of her pajamas.. anyways the first night it was spent normally and i didn't notice nor desire anything from her, the next night however.. i came in the room at night.. and saw how she was jumping up and down whilst inside her bed (she was basically humping the bed without making it seem like humping) i tried to tell her to knock it off because it was beginning to genuinely bother me at that point it became painfully clear to me that she was just for whatever reason aroused(as i later found out from her it was her hormonal cycle) at that point i started to fiend and told her some things i'd rather not say here.. soon after she stopped doing whatever she was doing and the room was dead silent. at one point i pretended to be sleeping as she was whispering to me.
The next morning i awoke to her getting up from bed and to my absolute amazement she was wearing nothing but a plain shirt and panties, that's when i saw how physically developed she was and from there is when i started to feel attraction to her.
After that throughout the whole time i was there i tried to somehow recreate that situation but soon enough it became evident to me that she was 0 sexually attracted to me and that my efforts were futile, all and all this experience made me realise how different my life would've been if i was better looking&taller and how low i fell because of Inceldom.
Basically 5 years ago i was on a trip in the countryside with my family and relatives, the girl who i could've had sexual experience is my cousin ( i know don't judge me) who was 12 at the time and i was 15, so we were staying at her Family's house me and my brother were sleeping in same room while she was sleeping in another room with her mother and my mom+sis+other female relatives. as fate would have it one night my brother fell asleep in her bed and so my mom and aunt didn't bother waking him up so she decided to sleep in my room, of course with us being cousins and all and with her basically being a kid (in my family's eyes) nobody thought it was inappropriate.
I'll be frank i was of the same opinion until she took of her pajamas.. anyways the first night it was spent normally and i didn't notice nor desire anything from her, the next night however.. i came in the room at night.. and saw how she was jumping up and down whilst inside her bed (she was basically humping the bed without making it seem like humping) i tried to tell her to knock it off because it was beginning to genuinely bother me at that point it became painfully clear to me that she was just for whatever reason aroused(as i later found out from her it was her hormonal cycle) at that point i started to fiend and told her some things i'd rather not say here.. soon after she stopped doing whatever she was doing and the room was dead silent. at one point i pretended to be sleeping as she was whispering to me.
The next morning i awoke to her getting up from bed and to my absolute amazement she was wearing nothing but a plain shirt and panties, that's when i saw how physically developed she was and from there is when i started to feel attraction to her.
After that throughout the whole time i was there i tried to somehow recreate that situation but soon enough it became evident to me that she was 0 sexually attracted to me and that my efforts were futile, all and all this experience made me realise how different my life would've been if i was better looking&taller and how low i fell because of Inceldom.
