cvury
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I’ve been through so much in my life time, but the worst feeling I’ve ever felt was being betrayed by the people I thought were my best friends. Throughout elementary I had a group of good friends, it started around 2nd grade when I was at a point where I had no real friends (just acquaintances), I was pretty lonely. Anyways I was having a birthday party and I didn’t know who to invite, so I picked some people I occasionally talked to, there were 5 of us including me. After my party things really took off and we did everything together. Ate lunch together, spent recess together, played Xbox together. We did everything and we had each other’s back. I fondly remember one Halloween we all went trick or treating together. It was so much fun, one of the best days of my life. But starting middle school everything fell apart. It’s when I really started getting bullied, and the 4 people I thought were the nicest, most fun people I ever met, started picking on me so they could fit in with the other chad punk popular kids. Starting 7th grade I had to move to a new city for my parent’s work and I never saw them again. I texted some of them, 2 responded out of pity I could tell they didn’t care. I still had hope though, so of course my birthday was coming up (again with the birthday shit, fuck) and I decided to invite them all because I had no one else to invite, and none of them responded to my invitation. I ended up spending my birthday getting Burger King with my wench of a mother. 3 years later and socially I’ve gotten nowhere, spent all middle school and early high school years with no friends, and now I have to move schools again because of the “incident” I discussed in previous threads. My life is a joke. I forgot about all this because it was so depressing and heartbreaking for me I blocked it out of my mind, until today when I logged into my old Instagram account for the first time in years. I go to look at their profile and they are still best friends. Their whole feed is covered in pictures of the 4 doing things together, it hurt so bad. I thought by now they would’ve drifted apart but they are still together. Everyone is so cruel and for what? I bet they forgot about me. My chest genuinely hurts when I think about them, it makes me so angry but so sad at the same time. I am already going through the worst time in my life after the “incident” and this was just the cherry on top of this living nightmare. God I hope I go to sleep tonight and never ever wake up.
I’m sorry for all this venting I just have no one to talk to, I have so many horrible life stories to tell, why did things have to end up this way. Why. Why someone tell me. I don’t get it.
I’m sorry for all this venting I just have no one to talk to, I have so many horrible life stories to tell, why did things have to end up this way. Why. Why someone tell me. I don’t get it.