I don't know where else I can post this, but fuck it.
So the lockdown started and I had to go to back home with parents.
My grades are shit (because I'm low IQ), so at home they started REEEing at me to study basically 24/7.
They literally have an objection to anything I do.
A wire in my earphone broke, and my parents absolutely fucking lost it when they caught me trying to solder it.
Stopped all my hobbies.
Got hour long lecture for playing some games on my laptop after a week.
My will to do anything basically was gone after about a month.
Placements started, but If parents find out that I get rejected from even 1 company, I'll never hear the end of it.
I tried to keep the whole applying to company low key.
My coordinator (I would happily murder that entire faggots entire family in front of him (in minecraft) while taking 1 cubic centimeter chunks out of his flesh) told my parents I was late for some test deadline. He's not supposed to do this btw.
Parents predictably lose it.
Currently being lectured daily. They now make sure I don't even have any apps on my phone. They also removed the admin lock ability, games, etc. Couldn't keep my animated wallpaper. Fapping to hentai is the only thing keeping me alive.
Currently getting REE'd at because companies reject my shit. Dad took my portal login and is applying me to every possible company and forcing me to take the tests. They're also starting to fuck with me over my marks in a subject in FUCKING CLASS TESTS.
I don't even know what to do anymore. They haven't fucked with my laptop yet as I am still very protective of it, but I don't know how much longer I can keep it sacred.
Always thought I would rope after I become a wizard. I had plans to sew myself a comfy wizard robes out of the finest materials I could buy, then build a whole bunch of shaped charges that would destroy my brain and spine. Maybe have some high quality headphones playing some peaceful music while some green and blue fireworks light up the night sky.
Currently just want to end it by injecting my neck with air (twirling the syringe in my hand rn), because that's the best method I can think of right now. Would Ideally prefer drop hanging, but I can't really get a long rope or wire. Just fantasizing about such things gives me some relief.
But I won't rope. I guess I owe myself a comfy death, and I've always(after 18 when I realized my life is fucked) wanted to die in an explosion.
So the lockdown started and I had to go to back home with parents.
My grades are shit (because I'm low IQ), so at home they started REEEing at me to study basically 24/7.
They literally have an objection to anything I do.
A wire in my earphone broke, and my parents absolutely fucking lost it when they caught me trying to solder it.
Stopped all my hobbies.
Got hour long lecture for playing some games on my laptop after a week.
My will to do anything basically was gone after about a month.
Placements started, but If parents find out that I get rejected from even 1 company, I'll never hear the end of it.
I tried to keep the whole applying to company low key.
My coordinator (I would happily murder that entire faggots entire family in front of him (in minecraft) while taking 1 cubic centimeter chunks out of his flesh) told my parents I was late for some test deadline. He's not supposed to do this btw.
Parents predictably lose it.
Currently being lectured daily. They now make sure I don't even have any apps on my phone. They also removed the admin lock ability, games, etc. Couldn't keep my animated wallpaper. Fapping to hentai is the only thing keeping me alive.
Currently getting REE'd at because companies reject my shit. Dad took my portal login and is applying me to every possible company and forcing me to take the tests. They're also starting to fuck with me over my marks in a subject in FUCKING CLASS TESTS.
I don't even know what to do anymore. They haven't fucked with my laptop yet as I am still very protective of it, but I don't know how much longer I can keep it sacred.
Always thought I would rope after I become a wizard. I had plans to sew myself a comfy wizard robes out of the finest materials I could buy, then build a whole bunch of shaped charges that would destroy my brain and spine. Maybe have some high quality headphones playing some peaceful music while some green and blue fireworks light up the night sky.
Currently just want to end it by injecting my neck with air (twirling the syringe in my hand rn), because that's the best method I can think of right now. Would Ideally prefer drop hanging, but I can't really get a long rope or wire. Just fantasizing about such things gives me some relief.
But I won't rope. I guess I owe myself a comfy death, and I've always(after 18 when I realized my life is fucked) wanted to die in an explosion.
