
glassescel
its beyond over
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- May 14, 2023
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I listen to music when I shower so I don't feel so lonely.
Sometimes the eternal silence is unbearable.
I hear beeping in my ears and voices in my head.
Even though I shower with warm water, I feel so cold.
I'm just cold.
Sometimes I feel like the only person of my kind in the world.
At the moment I'm wondering how I've survived so far.
I feel like a survivor sometimes and somehow also like a war survivor.
How many times have people tried to wipe me out mentally and therefore physically and yet I still stand and breathe.
Nevertheless, I am seriously injured and only feel cold even though I shower with warm water and sit in the room.
This cold is unbearable.
It is an internal cold that manifests itself in external symptoms.
My feet feel like they're going to fall off from the cold, everything is cold.
It's all so sad and nothing makes me happy anymore.
I'm not looking forward to anything anymore.
Abandoned by all people in some way.
Betrayed by family, acquaintances and friends.
Life is just a scam for me.
Sometimes the eternal silence is unbearable.
I hear beeping in my ears and voices in my head.
Even though I shower with warm water, I feel so cold.
I'm just cold.
Sometimes I feel like the only person of my kind in the world.
At the moment I'm wondering how I've survived so far.
I feel like a survivor sometimes and somehow also like a war survivor.
How many times have people tried to wipe me out mentally and therefore physically and yet I still stand and breathe.
Nevertheless, I am seriously injured and only feel cold even though I shower with warm water and sit in the room.
This cold is unbearable.
It is an internal cold that manifests itself in external symptoms.
My feet feel like they're going to fall off from the cold, everything is cold.
It's all so sad and nothing makes me happy anymore.
I'm not looking forward to anything anymore.
Abandoned by all people in some way.
Betrayed by family, acquaintances and friends.
Life is just a scam for me.