Presentations was always kinda a weird thing for me. Sometimes I did it effortless and mine were always very professional even in early Highschool.
Good layouts, prepared, free handed while everyone always read some notes. (Tbh I never understood the notes thing and that whole read a sheet kinds thing).
But in college especially with corona that changed.
I got extremly anxious and tbh I didnt put much effort into shit anymore because I simply didnt care about the topic.
It was yet another "Why am I even doing this again?" kinda feeling.
I have done dozens of Presentations in Elementary to Highschool.
Especially group Presentations and projects I basically did ON MY OWN.
incels.is
One of the most brutal projects you can read here.
This whole "Team Work" Stigma started to eventually piss me off when it was only me who put in the work and carry other people I didnt even like to the finish line and then teachers called it "good Team work".
I should maybe have talked with the teachers more that I was only doing it all the time on my own.
Yeah and in college I stopped Petting in the effort because for 12 years it was all just me always doing pretty much everything.
My social anxiety was never as high as now due to many reasons.
And now in my current job we also have presentations and Zoom Meetings and tbh people notice that I am doing a "lazy" job.
The reason for that is - the squeeze isnt worth the Juice.
Money is one thing but tbh as a loner and with all my experiences all I want is APPRECIATION!
No one ever called me a cool guy or gratulated me for always helping.
Besides one teacher who supported me - no one ever did.
Yeah no matter what or how i did it ultimately nobody ever cared so around 18/19 I evolved this whole "Idc" "I dont give a fuck"
I read this book and this became my 20+ doomer personality.
Maybe it's what girls refer to as a "bad personality" well my good personality, nor my funny personality ever got me anywhere.
Meanwhile these nobodies become "actors" and "social media stars" for posting memes and their faces.
Maybe I should have done it too like my mom said.
Become "Ishowspeed" or some other asshole jester.
These people never put in the effort I did, never went through the shit I did. I see and hear it everyday from Normies how "everything" just works out.
Manipulation and network skills are the only things that you really need to succeed. Everyone succeeded by abusing my kindness, now I get asked why I am so depressed and so much of an "asshole" well because being a "Nice Guy" brought me here in the first place.
Good layouts, prepared, free handed while everyone always read some notes. (Tbh I never understood the notes thing and that whole read a sheet kinds thing).
But in college especially with corona that changed.
I got extremly anxious and tbh I didnt put much effort into shit anymore because I simply didnt care about the topic.
It was yet another "Why am I even doing this again?" kinda feeling.
I have done dozens of Presentations in Elementary to Highschool.
Especially group Presentations and projects I basically did ON MY OWN.
"Group" Project
Feat the post by @Misogynist Vegeta Ah yeah "Group Projects" aka I do 100% of the work in order to not ruin my grade score while others are sitting around. You know what I hated the most? I had one Boomer Bitch teacher who always put me together with the trash students so that they could...
incels.is
One of the most brutal projects you can read here.
This whole "Team Work" Stigma started to eventually piss me off when it was only me who put in the work and carry other people I didnt even like to the finish line and then teachers called it "good Team work".
I should maybe have talked with the teachers more that I was only doing it all the time on my own.
Yeah and in college I stopped Petting in the effort because for 12 years it was all just me always doing pretty much everything.
My social anxiety was never as high as now due to many reasons.
And now in my current job we also have presentations and Zoom Meetings and tbh people notice that I am doing a "lazy" job.
The reason for that is - the squeeze isnt worth the Juice.
Money is one thing but tbh as a loner and with all my experiences all I want is APPRECIATION!
No one ever called me a cool guy or gratulated me for always helping.
Besides one teacher who supported me - no one ever did.
Yeah no matter what or how i did it ultimately nobody ever cared so around 18/19 I evolved this whole "Idc" "I dont give a fuck"
I read this book and this became my 20+ doomer personality.
Maybe it's what girls refer to as a "bad personality" well my good personality, nor my funny personality ever got me anywhere.
Meanwhile these nobodies become "actors" and "social media stars" for posting memes and their faces.
Maybe I should have done it too like my mom said.
Become "Ishowspeed" or some other asshole jester.
These people never put in the effort I did, never went through the shit I did. I see and hear it everyday from Normies how "everything" just works out.
Manipulation and network skills are the only things that you really need to succeed. Everyone succeeded by abusing my kindness, now I get asked why I am so depressed and so much of an "asshole" well because being a "Nice Guy" brought me here in the first place.
