-I missed out on teen love
-im subhuman
-i keep thinking of chads snapchat
-I keep seeing my life flash me by
-The girls i like doesnt like me back
-im undesirable and dont see it get better
-im an antisocial loser that wished he was social but then id have to look normal
-i have adhd and autism
I wish i was 16 again but reincarnated with a prettier face so i could start life over while i still have a chance, Then i wouldnt miss out on things, Or better yet be reborn at 1 but with a better face so i could start from scratch, Then i could have school friends and maybe a gf as i grow up but i guess im too old for school and im starting to get old, 30 is nearing and im 24, It keeps me up at night that my NPC character was so badly scripted that i cant have a normal life, Everyone in my family has had a GF/BF while growing up and me? Well im subhuman, I feel utterly fucked in life by the fact that my character creation was so botched, A jew nose and large creepy eyes, Being called creepy growing up, I had to rot with anime and videogames since 11 till now and between work and school, Finished college aswell as parents thought it would be a good fit, But it would just be the same as kid schools when i was younger, Alone or replaced by bullies seeing my friend gang go off with them or thinking their cooler, Could be the fact they were allowed to play cod while i had nothing to offer, Hey what is your killstreak in COD? Me? Im not allowed to play it, Them: LOOSER!
Maybe id have some friends if id be able to play cod while younger so i can socialize with them after school but idk, Ive always been that creepy looking autistic kid, No matter how much of a good heart ive had people would always piss on me and now i end up bitter at 24 when i originally should have been a happy social butterfly, It keeps me up at night, The fact that people go to fun fairs with their GFs they goto carnevals, Music festivals, Kiss, Hug, Hangout, Acting lovey dovey, And her i sit and watch it from the distance wishing it was me, All my attempts at getting a GF including better shape/Haircuts, Etc has always failed, I feel like an utter failure, I see people younger than me with a GF and i can never have that as an adult i can never have a girlfriend, I get mogged by older and younger people, What do they have that i dont? They have looks!
I wish genetics didnt exist and everyone would just accept eachother maybe treat eachother a little better, Its now 3:17 am and im kept awake ruminating about what could have been.
Im sure others can relate
Thanks for listening to my vent, It may help me sleep.
-im subhuman
-i keep thinking of chads snapchat
-I keep seeing my life flash me by
-The girls i like doesnt like me back
-im undesirable and dont see it get better
-im an antisocial loser that wished he was social but then id have to look normal
-i have adhd and autism
I wish i was 16 again but reincarnated with a prettier face so i could start life over while i still have a chance, Then i wouldnt miss out on things, Or better yet be reborn at 1 but with a better face so i could start from scratch, Then i could have school friends and maybe a gf as i grow up but i guess im too old for school and im starting to get old, 30 is nearing and im 24, It keeps me up at night that my NPC character was so badly scripted that i cant have a normal life, Everyone in my family has had a GF/BF while growing up and me? Well im subhuman, I feel utterly fucked in life by the fact that my character creation was so botched, A jew nose and large creepy eyes, Being called creepy growing up, I had to rot with anime and videogames since 11 till now and between work and school, Finished college aswell as parents thought it would be a good fit, But it would just be the same as kid schools when i was younger, Alone or replaced by bullies seeing my friend gang go off with them or thinking their cooler, Could be the fact they were allowed to play cod while i had nothing to offer, Hey what is your killstreak in COD? Me? Im not allowed to play it, Them: LOOSER!
Maybe id have some friends if id be able to play cod while younger so i can socialize with them after school but idk, Ive always been that creepy looking autistic kid, No matter how much of a good heart ive had people would always piss on me and now i end up bitter at 24 when i originally should have been a happy social butterfly, It keeps me up at night, The fact that people go to fun fairs with their GFs they goto carnevals, Music festivals, Kiss, Hug, Hangout, Acting lovey dovey, And her i sit and watch it from the distance wishing it was me, All my attempts at getting a GF including better shape/Haircuts, Etc has always failed, I feel like an utter failure, I see people younger than me with a GF and i can never have that as an adult i can never have a girlfriend, I get mogged by older and younger people, What do they have that i dont? They have looks!
I wish genetics didnt exist and everyone would just accept eachother maybe treat eachother a little better, Its now 3:17 am and im kept awake ruminating about what could have been.
Im sure others can relate
Thanks for listening to my vent, It may help me sleep.
