MuslimCell
Religion is stopping me from going ER or Rope
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This is story of a lot of men , sadly .
Why god even created us just to feel disgusted by those who are better then us , by those who are even like and most importantly by ourselves . The disgust from my self by my sself is huge , deep down I know how incapable and worthless I am just because of my low looks . Just because of my low looks , everything bad is happening to me . the rejection , the avoidance , the subtle hidden reject by the members of same specie . They all wants us gone if we didn't just get more good-looking . Our personally , behaviour. Honestly , and honor ... doesn't matter . We are "important "to them as long we are needed . The earth belongs to the good-looking human and subhumans like us are just to serve and be bullied and made fun of . Everyone hates us , they want us dead gone . If somehow we are respected it's always because they need us somehow .
It's the hard truth , I can't hide it anymore , I won't cope any more . We are their enemies , just helpless parasites to them .
I always ask god how somehow I can change my appearance , isn't god of all things capable , all powerful , allthe merciful . Why the fuck he didn't help us , why he didn't listen to our pain and suffering , why he didn't give us guide , hope and simply and answer .
I swear I am almost losing my mind . I cope with neville goddard imagination teaching , I cope with my belief that god is of all things capable , I cope that one day because of my discipline (fasting , prayer , training , reading , meditation ,and hard work on my soul ... ) one day god will pay off , he will make me finally happy fulfilled free .
I am fucking pethatic , no money , no jobs , no respect , trapped in a society filled with hypocrites , liars , pretenders , coper who are getting shit on by the good-looking . Rubbing it in our faces . They have money , sex , admiration , god damn it they are even fuled with drive and passion in their life . While I just have no fucking drive or clear fulfilling purpose . Always in doubt , self hate and just being paralyzed . Some time I wish I was born paralyzed so they is no hope for me ever . Not just trapped see the light but never can reach it .
Well that was satisfying to write . I will stay put on the hope that one day god answers me and set me free . If god ever helped me I will share it all with you brocels and help you , I promise .
Why god even created us just to feel disgusted by those who are better then us , by those who are even like and most importantly by ourselves . The disgust from my self by my sself is huge , deep down I know how incapable and worthless I am just because of my low looks . Just because of my low looks , everything bad is happening to me . the rejection , the avoidance , the subtle hidden reject by the members of same specie . They all wants us gone if we didn't just get more good-looking . Our personally , behaviour. Honestly , and honor ... doesn't matter . We are "important "to them as long we are needed . The earth belongs to the good-looking human and subhumans like us are just to serve and be bullied and made fun of . Everyone hates us , they want us dead gone . If somehow we are respected it's always because they need us somehow .
It's the hard truth , I can't hide it anymore , I won't cope any more . We are their enemies , just helpless parasites to them .
I always ask god how somehow I can change my appearance , isn't god of all things capable , all powerful , allthe merciful . Why the fuck he didn't help us , why he didn't listen to our pain and suffering , why he didn't give us guide , hope and simply and answer .
I swear I am almost losing my mind . I cope with neville goddard imagination teaching , I cope with my belief that god is of all things capable , I cope that one day because of my discipline (fasting , prayer , training , reading , meditation ,and hard work on my soul ... ) one day god will pay off , he will make me finally happy fulfilled free .
I am fucking pethatic , no money , no jobs , no respect , trapped in a society filled with hypocrites , liars , pretenders , coper who are getting shit on by the good-looking . Rubbing it in our faces . They have money , sex , admiration , god damn it they are even fuled with drive and passion in their life . While I just have no fucking drive or clear fulfilling purpose . Always in doubt , self hate and just being paralyzed . Some time I wish I was born paralyzed so they is no hope for me ever . Not just trapped see the light but never can reach it .
Well that was satisfying to write . I will stay put on the hope that one day god answers me and set me free . If god ever helped me I will share it all with you brocels and help you , I promise .