When this happened it was December and our highschool decided that it would be cool to make an event where students could wear Christmas costumes or more simple stuff (santa hats / sweaters).
As it was the time in my life where, i began to try and socialize because i was fed up of being alone, and thus come with a smth christmas related. i decided to come to class wearing a sweater with festive lights wrapped all over, just like the festivizer in tf2 for reference.
It began this morning where everyone chat together about what they brought, and i wanted to join in, as there was someone i was kinda close i felt safer. It was going all well when there was this girl getting into the convo, from what i got she knew everyone here, except from me. She was loud about the costumes and all, and i don't really remember why but she started hugging everyone one by one.
I didn't really lean in for any hugs because i don't know who tf she was and didn't want to make a cringe moment where i do smth that could be considered creepy around all her friends, but to my surprise she approached me as the last person. I can't recall exactly what she said and i don't want to say bullshit, but she looked annoyed and resentful to give me a hug, she was kind off sighing when approaching and saying smth i don't remember, but it wasn't nice, more like she was obliged to.
I know for sure that she made this either to not look bad in front of the others and keep her halo of some kind of "lively and caring energetic girl" that she wanted to be, or she simply took pity. As when she hugged everyone else it was with enthusiasm, i clearly wasn't wanted to be here.
This was after i stopped sperging and realised that i was not normal and had autistic tendencies that needed to be suppressed, so no way she would know something about my autism at first glance.
It's these kind of subliminal messages i should have taken count of instead of bullshit redpill stuff. "Socialize" they said. "People don't care" they said. "Women aren't all like that" they said.
That day I didn't even had to approach a girl myself to see that they are once again, to my knowledge, rotten insincere individuals.
As it was the time in my life where, i began to try and socialize because i was fed up of being alone, and thus come with a smth christmas related. i decided to come to class wearing a sweater with festive lights wrapped all over, just like the festivizer in tf2 for reference.
It began this morning where everyone chat together about what they brought, and i wanted to join in, as there was someone i was kinda close i felt safer. It was going all well when there was this girl getting into the convo, from what i got she knew everyone here, except from me. She was loud about the costumes and all, and i don't really remember why but she started hugging everyone one by one.
I didn't really lean in for any hugs because i don't know who tf she was and didn't want to make a cringe moment where i do smth that could be considered creepy around all her friends, but to my surprise she approached me as the last person. I can't recall exactly what she said and i don't want to say bullshit, but she looked annoyed and resentful to give me a hug, she was kind off sighing when approaching and saying smth i don't remember, but it wasn't nice, more like she was obliged to.
I know for sure that she made this either to not look bad in front of the others and keep her halo of some kind of "lively and caring energetic girl" that she wanted to be, or she simply took pity. As when she hugged everyone else it was with enthusiasm, i clearly wasn't wanted to be here.
This was after i stopped sperging and realised that i was not normal and had autistic tendencies that needed to be suppressed, so no way she would know something about my autism at first glance.
It's these kind of subliminal messages i should have taken count of instead of bullshit redpill stuff. "Socialize" they said. "People don't care" they said. "Women aren't all like that" they said.
That day I didn't even had to approach a girl myself to see that they are once again, to my knowledge, rotten insincere individuals.
